erynn: Gaelic merman image (Everything Hurts)
I had a reasonably good day today, but I'm tired and cranky and didn't really get much of anything done beyond talking to my shrink. Due to issues with construction at the VA (they are planning on putting in a parking garage, which means there will be zero staff parking there until it is done), Tracy will be doing more work from home once construction starts, which means she's going to have to cut back on her office hours with patients. I would still be able to see her once a month, but she doesn't have time for twice a month once all that starts.

I've been doing some thinking about various issues and need to talk with my brother and a few other people before I say much else, as I'm uncertain whether the thought would be practical or not. I wasn't up to composing an email to him this evening but maybe tomorrow or Friday.

I'm feeling slightly headachey, I have group tomorrow, and there are supposed to be people here to take a quick look around tomorrow about 1pm, so I will need to be ready to be out of here for a little while by then, before I head down to Seattle.

While [ profile] ingvisson was driving me to the VA today, we had the windows open. At one point, around Lake Union, somebody in the car in the next lane called over, asking if the traffic was always like this. It was a little slow, as it usually is at that time of day. I told him yes. He was surprised. "At two o'clock?" he asked.

"Yeah," I said. His car had BC plates and he said he was going to Portland, and asked how far the traffic before the traffic would thin out. I told him that it should clear out just south of downtown and would probably be okay from there to Tacoma. I didn't say that there would probably also be a bit of a slowdown around Olympia, nor did I have the heart to tell him that the traffic was actually a little better than usual, as the slowdown that usually happens right around Northgate didn't show until about the 75th street exit.

This is why I usually leave about 10am if I am going to Portland. Rush hour goes until about 9:30 or so, and after noon traffic starts heating up again. There's a window there of a couple of hours where it's not quite so egregious, and it takes from about 10am to 2pm to get to [ profile] martianmooncrab's in Oregon City from my place in Everett. If I leave at pretty much any other time of day, instead of four hours, it might take five or more. Go go gadget Seattle traffic.

And now I'm going to try curling up for a bit with a book until I pass out. With any luck, I might get a little rest tonight.
erynn: Gaelic merman image (Ganesha)
The contractor came in to do another examination of the bathroom ceiling today. The water in the insulation was, apparently, the result of a tub overflow very shortly before the ceiling was opened up. One of the people upstairs was home - she said there hadn't been an overflow, but she's not the only one who lives there so she may not have known about it. There is no mold in the ceiling of my bathroom. No running of water in the upstairs bathtub, sink, or toilet produced any dripping water. There was no water in the plastic that had been put up Saturday. None of the woodwork inside the ceiling was wet. All is well, and repairs will continue as anticipated, so this was very good news.

Someone came by to see the place today, and I have an appointment for somebody to come on Thursday at 1pm to have a look as well. No idea if there is any actual interest, but things are progressing. While waiting for the realtor and client to come and go today, I took the DoDC+3 outside up to the dog area and sat in the sun on one of the benches for a while, just soaking up the sun.

I got my brother on Skype today for a little while. We talked about the idea of him coming to the consulate with me, which he says he's willing to do if it won't interfere with his work, so that shouldn't be a problem. He doesn't think it would be too necessary, though he agrees that modifying how I look temporarily will probably help. The largest thing that he may be able to do for me involves dealing with the money end of things. He's got quite a bit saved up from when he was in Baghdad a year and a half or so ago; it might be enough to deal with the monetary requirements the consulate wants fulfilled. He needs to ask some questions to find out how it has to be arranged so as to work best for us, and if we can do this before early next year it would be for the best, as his current Active Reserve contract ends around the end of the year; he's going to have to wait again before he can sign up with them, and the economy over there is no better than it is here, so he'll be living on that money while he tries to find work.

That said, if I can sell this place and get through the visa application process reasonably quickly, I'll be able to help him out once I get there, given that I have an actual substantial monthly income that isn't going away. I was grateful and relieved, because it's that monetary aspect that concerns me most about this process.

I did some more work on my Italian language online, sorted a little more of the kitchen stuff, and hauled the sorted items out to the garage until I can figure out how to deal with it.

Today I also called mom and talked with her for a little while. She's got bronchitis again but is dealing with it. Her husband's diabetes complications are ongoing, but they are dealing with it as best they can. The herb that I'd mentioned to her as being recommended by my neurologist for migraines has apparently (possibly in combination with the co-q-10 she has been taking) resulted in a drastic reduction in the number of her migraines. She usually has 15 or more of them in a month. This month, her grand total of migraines was ONE. She is thrilled and hopes that this continues.

I have not had any particular success with the herb so far, but I will see about adding the co-q-10 to the regime and find out of that will help at all. It's gawdawful expensive in the stores around here, but apparently you can get it a lot more cheaply online. I'll have to look into it. The past few days I have been headachey again and, though it wasn't too bad, I did have a headache again today for a while. This one was more transient than the usual migraines, more like just the combination of stress and fibromyalgia that sometimes hits me and leaves me with pain in my head.

Once again I am left feeling like I did very little today, but actually got a fair bit accomplished. It's strange how so much of the progress in my life right now comes in what feels like nearly invisible increments.

Tomorrow, shrinkage. Tonight, deal with the dishes before I crash. Limbo is uncomfortable, but I have to live in this and muddle through as best I can.
erynn: Gaelic merman image (Everything Hurts)
I spent most of the day today with a headache again, of the mild but spike-in-the-eye variety. I emailed my brother and will wait for his response, whenever that happens to be. It's not urgent as I haven't even had anyone come see the place after the first day.

The hide-a-bed couch got sold and hauled away today, then I shifted where the little day bed is in the room so things were easier for me to reach from it. I did a little Italian study online, though I didn't get far with it, mostly due to headache-induced lack of focus. Money got deposited in the credit union from the sale of the bicycle and the couch just a few minutes ago, when [ profile] gra_is_stor came by to pick up some basmati rice and help me run the errand.

Beyond that, there was the start of some sorting through kitchen stuff. I went through one of the lower cabinets and one of the upper ones and sorted through stuff. I'm starting a small collection of things that need to be sold or given away. They are currently sitting on the kitchen counter but I'll be moving them to the living room bookshelf until I put a box together to carry stuff out to the garage. That'll probably be tomorrow, when I'll do more sorting.

Right now, probably because of the headache, I'm feeling a bit tired and down. Hopefully, tomorrow will be a clearer day for me.
erynn: Gaelic merman image (Caracal cat)
The contractor came this morning and replaced the heater in the living room, and he took away the old unit for recycling. It took about 15 minutes, as I expected. The unit was tested and works fine. I cleaned the grates on the other heater units as best I could, but I wasn't able to get all the black off some of the bars.

My guts acted up a bit earlier today. I'm assuming it was just stress getting to me, as it's been a while since I've had stressy IBS symptoms. I suppose I was due. Thankfully, I seem to be okay now. I had a little bit of sushi next door later in the day and that was very nice. It had been a little while.

Late this afternoon somebody came by and bought the 2-drawer filing cabinet. I sorted through one of the drawers in the kitchen and got rid of some things I didn't need. Soon, I'm going to be sorting through the cookware and dishes to thin things down a bit. I also need to deal with all the various and sundry vases. I really only use one or two of them when I have flowers, and I don't need the rest. Speaking of which, it's time to get new flowers for the table, as the old ones were starting to shed. I figure it's nice to keep some on the table for when people come to view the place.

I was called by a real estate agent and asked if the place qualifies for an FHA loan. The answer is, no it doesn't. Apparently the condo complex doesn't take them. This is also apparently in the agent notes in the listing, which he apparently didn't read. I had emailed my real estate agency to ask, just in case anyone else asked me.

Still no new people through to see the place. After three people on the first day, I'd hoped that meant maybe I would see people through more often. I mean it doesn't matter if anyone comes or not, the place still has to be ready for them just in case. That bit is emotionally exhausting. I'm wondering if they are going to set up an open house at some point. When the realtor gets back into town next week, I'm going to email him and ask about that, considering it's been about a week now and only three visits. I'm not sure if that is good or really bad. *sigh*

[ profile] gra_is_stor should be coming by when she's done in Seattle tonight (that's about three hours from now, if things work as they usually do) and will run me by the bank to make a deposit. We're going to pack the chairs and the blankets in the back of the car as well, for tomorrow's concert. It was overcast and rainy today, so I'm not sure what the weather in Seattle is supposed to be like tomorrow evening. I'm guessing much like today.

I think I'm going to curl up and read for a bit.
erynn: Gaelic merman image (Bowie's disappointed in you)
So another person inquired about the bed and then flaked out on me. If somebody else asks me about just the frame I'll probably say $350. If that doesn't put them off maybe I can get rid of the mattress/box spring separately for another $150.

The contractor came today and took a look at the ceiling in the bathroom. There is water damage but it's been there for quite some time and the ceiling is not at all damp; it probably happened when the water heater above the unit next door died a couple of years back. Anyway, they were going to talk to Brian at the condo association to see what should be done.

I now have 18 boxes of books packed and no more material to put in the boxes with the books to keep them from shifting too much. I'm going to have to get stuff to pack with.

One of my steampunk friends came over and we went off to the AFK this evening for some dinner and hanging out for a little while. [ profile] mael_brigde will be getting in a little after 3pm tomorrow and will be here for a couple of days.

I spoke with the neurology doc on the phone today. She suggested some magnesium for the hand tremors, so I will probably drop by Bartells tomorrow to pick up a bottle. We will be doing an MRI but more to rule things out than because she suspects anything in particular. It'll probably be several weeks before I hear from the clinic to schedule.

I'm going to have to go to someone to have a few of the piercings removed and then put back in after the MRI, because they are just too difficult (and painful) for me to get them out myself. A couple of years back one of the dentists made me take my nose piercing out for xrays and I swore I was never going to do that again. It hurt like hell and it was just not worth it. Getting a professional to get it out might avoid some of that pain.

And now I am going to crawl off to bed because my head hurts and my neck is aching. Feels like an incipient migraine, yay.
erynn: Gaelic merman image (GONZO!)
So Jay came over today, along with [ profile] gra_is_stor and [ profile] ingvisson and we watched To Wong Foo and an Eddie Izzard show. Much fun was had by all, but by the end of it one of my eyeballs was threatening to explode with a headache. I didn't really get anything else done today. After the vids we went next door and had some food together, then they all split.

I'm tired and a little cranky but otherwise okay. The headache isn't as bad as it was earlier, thankfully.

Today's events make me despair for my country, but I've been feeling that way for a long time now. The state of the world tends to leave me in distress. Right now I'm too overwhelmed with personal issues to do much more than commiserate with those who are personally affected by what's happening in different places. I wish I had enough bandwidth to do anything at all that might make a difference.
erynn: Gaelic merman image (Failure TRex)
So Sheela Lambert emailed me and a bunch of other folks - one of the guys who won an award last weekend got detained at the Canadian border because of his award. Seriously. Read this and know that biphobia really is a thing.

In other news, both fans in the desktop were replaced and the thing is whisper-silent again. This pleases me greatly. There's stuff I wanted to do tonight (like some writing) that I am too tired to really deal with, but I will probably do some tomorrow. I went to a friend's birthday party this evening and had a lovely time.

A decision has been made regarding my living situation and I'll talk a little about it in the next few days, but I am definitely selling the condo and moving. I can't stay here for months or years on end and depend on other people to drive me everywhere. It's just not going to work. I'm currently researching things and working out details.

I am going to have to pare down a lot on my stuff, which means selling a bunch of things, including part of my library, but I'm okay with that. I feel lighter for having made the decision.
erynn: Gaelic merman image (Bowie's disappointed in you)
I asked [ profile] gra_is_stor to take me over to the Apple store today because my desktop was making rattling noises. It's one or both of the fans, but since my desktop is still under warranty, they'll replace them without charging me. They should call me tomorrow so that we can go over and pick it up.

Tomorrow should also be some grocery shopping, the Mensa TGIF at Emory's, and a birthday party for a friend over in Everett. I'm tired and hoping I will be up to all of this stuff. I was really dizzy today most of the day, and the drive to Alderwood didn't help much. I did get a little writing done in the last couple of days - about 3,000 words in the fic I'm working on. So far, so good.
erynn: Gaelic merman image (Tibetan chant)
I've been pretty busy writing fanfic lately, and dealing with tired and creaky and prepping for the trip to New York and all that stuff. I talked to my mom and she is okay; they tornadoes were supposed to go through their area but went around, so I am relieved by that.

I've been in touch with folks back east about my trip and am hoping to see several people while I am out there. One of the women who came to Ireland with me last summer will be coming to the poetry reading and awards ceremony, so it will be fantastic to see her again.

I am still dizzy with no end in sight. I called the otolaryngology clinic on Thursday and asked about neurology, as I haven't heard anything from them about the consult as yet. The gal I saw in oto the week before will call them and ask what's going on; the consult was received so they should be trying to schedule an appointment for me. Perhaps I'll hear from them before I leave next week. Maybe.

Generally speaking, I wish I were a little more focused, but I'm working on getting there. I'm pretty sure I'll eventually be able to deal with nonfiction writing again and my research, it's just going to take time. Which is disappointing, but that's life. On the up side, I've had a little progress, in that I'm able to write at all. Today I've spent doing some editing and checking for continuity in the story I'm working on, but that's very slow going because it's so detail-oriented.

Tomorrow [ profile] alfrecht and some of his peeps are supposed to visit on their way back from Seattle. I'm looking forward to having a little company and doing Pagan schmoozing. I'm also supposed to review a piece that [ profile] wire_mother sent me, and am hoping to do that tomorrow night, provided I have the brain juice.
erynn: Gaelic merman image (Illya "Missed it by this much")
I was awakened this afternoon by [ profile] ingvisson's text telling me he'd be at my place at 2pm to take me to the VA, which I had completely spaced. I threw myself into the shower and was finishing up the whole getting dressed thing when he arrived.

We got to my appointment on time and things were okay, but I was frustrated by my having forgotten. Afterwards, I went over to Emory's for some dinner - duck with pasta in a truffle cream sauce and a glass of Argentinian Malbec. Noms. The eagles were out sitting in the trees across the lake, in the rain. I've been seeing them and the ospreys with relative frequency the past few weeks, which is always nice.

My fic writing continues apace. Yesterday I got about 600 words, the day before that nearly 3000, and today there were about 1200. I'm tired, but reasonably pleased by this. My head hurts, though.

Today's email brought this:

The Bi Writers Association announces their Bisexual Book Award finalists today. The winners will be revealed and awards bestowed at the Bisexual Book Awards Ceremony following the Bi Lines VI reading and multi-arts program on June 2nd.

Awards will be given in seven categories. Finalists are announced today for all categories except Bisexual Book Publisher of the Year, which will be kept secret until the awards ceremony. The awards are open to people of all orientations, except the Bi Writer Award, which goes to the best bi author of the year, from all the categories combined.

Books were nominated by the Bi Writers Association and allowed to be nominated to any category they fit. No limits were set on number of finalists, but were narrowed down to the best in each category by the judges. Bisexual Fiction had the most nominees, and therefore, the most finalists. The judges are a combination of award-winning writers, respected bi writers and passionate bi book readers.

The first list of finalists for the Bisexual Book Awards is announced today
Photo credit: Crown Awards
Bisexual Book Awards Finalists List:

Bisexual Fiction
1. Beyond Binary: Genderqueer and Sexually Fluid Speculative Fiction, Edited by Brit Mandelo, Lethe Press

2. History of a Pleasure Seeker, Richard Mason, Random House / Knopf
3. In One Person, John Irving, Simon & Schuster
4. The Last Nude, Ellis Avery, Riverhead Books
5. Mount Royal, There’s nothing harder than love, Basil Papademos, Tightrope Books
6. Silver Moon, Catherine Lundoff, Lethe Press
7. Whitetail Shooting Gallery, Annette Lapointe, Anvil Press Publishers

Bisexual Non-fiction
1. Girlfag: A Life Told In Sex and Musicals, Janet W. Hardy, Beyond Binary Books
2. My Awesome Place: The Autobiography of Cheryl B, Cheryl Burke, Topside Signature

Bisexual Poetry
1. Fireflies at Absolute Zero, Erynn Rowan Laurie, Hiraeth Press
2. Love Without Limits: The Bi-Laws of Love, Yazmin Monet Watkins, Red Journal Publications
3. Shine, Donnelle McGee, Sibling Rivalry Press

Bisexual Erotic Fiction/Erotica
1. Mount Royal, There’s nothing harder than love, Basil Papademos,
2. The Poet and the Prophecy: Magic University Book Four, Cecilia Tan, Ravenous Romance
3. Times Square Queer: Tales of Bad Boys in the Big Apple, Mykola Dementiuk, Renaissance eBooks

Bisexual Speculative Fiction [Science Fiction/Fantasy/Horror]

1. Beyond Binary: Genderqueer and Sexually Fluid Speculative Fiction, Brit Mandelo, Lethe Press
2. Gleams of a Remoter World, Fiona Glass, Riptide Publishing
3. The Poet and the Prophecy: Magic University Book Four, Cecilia Tan, Ravenous Romance
4. Silver Moon, Catherine Lundoff, Lethe Press

Bi Writer Award
1. Beyond Binary: Genderqueer and Sexually Fluid Speculative Fiction, Brit Mandelo, Lethe Press
2. Fireflies at Absolute Zero, Erynn Rowan Laurie, Hiraeth Press
3. Girlfag: A Life Told In Sex and Musicals, Janet W. Hardy, Beyond Binary Books
4. My Awesome Place: The Autobiography of Cheryl B, Cheryl Burke, Topside Signature
5. Mount Royal, There’s nothing harder than love, Basil Papademos, Tightrope Books Inc.
6. The Poet and the Prophecy: Magic University Book Four, Cecilia Tan, Ravenous Romance
7. Silver Moon, Catherine Lundoff, Lethe Press
8. Times Square Queer: Tales of Bad Boys in the Big Apple, Mykola Dementiuk, Renaissance eBooks
9. Whitetail Shooting Gallery, Annette Lapointe, Anvil Press Publishers

Bi Book Publisher of the Year -Winner will be announced at the Bisexual Book Awards, June 2nd in New York City.

I'm about to crawl off to bed. I hope you all have a great night/day/whatever it happens to be when you read this.
erynn: Gaelic merman image (asclepius rod)
It was a short-ish visit. We are no closer to a solution or an actual diagnosis. They are sending me to neurology as soon as they can get a consult through, but it is looking like this is either migraines or menopause related. In both cases, this is not likely to be a short-term thing. If, by some miracle, it is migraine related and they are able to find something that works to prevent them (unlikely, in my opinion), then it might be solvable within the next couple of years. If not, there is no way to tell. It might take a couple of years, or it might take a decade, or it might never go away.

I'm not going to think too much about it right now until I have been to neurology, but I'm going to have to start coping with the idea that this might actually be long term or permanent.
erynn: Gaelic merman image (Wile E WTF)
So today I woke up to an email from Google telling me that the account associated with my seanet email address had its password changed. That account was never used for anything other than admin on my Searching for Imbas blog; I'd forgotten the password some time ago and had never done anything with it, so the blog is actually administered from my gmail account. I attempted to go and get control of the seanet Google account back but could not because I couldn't remember when the account was created or when the last time I'd logged into it was. I went and removed it from the Blogger account, though.

Later today I got an email from Google Play saying that somebody in Tacoma had ordered something from them. The Visa used was not an account number I am familiar with. After a couple of hours of searching various Google websites and help pages, I called to try to have the order cancelled. The help desk person said they'd do that if they could.

Several hours later, I got another email saying the thing had shipped. I called again and tried once again to explain things to people. I got shuffled over to Google Wallet, which is a service I have never used. After a lengthy struggle, I managed to convey that I had not ordered the item, that the address it was being shipped to was not mine, the credit card was either not mine or had expired years ago, and that I wanted any and all Google accounts associated with my seanet address deleted. I think that might have finally been accomplished. I was very clear with them that I had nothing to do with this order and, if they get defrauded because of it, I am in no way responsible for any costs associated with the mess.

My actual seanet email account and website appear to be fine, but if you get any emails from me from my seanet account that don't actually sound like they are from me? Let me know because there might have been further consequences of this incident. As far as I know, there should be no issue, but I just want people to be aware of what happened.

I've been feeling like complete crap the past couple of days anyway, and the depression is getting to me pretty badly. I talked last night to [ profile] man_of_snows and today to [ profile] ogam about different aspects of things I'm struggling with, which was nice. Skype text chat is pretty useful when the system actually bothers to send the messages. Sometimes they seem to just get stuck in the great bit bucket in the sky.

I'm doing my best, but it's hard right now. Not knowing what's happening or how to alleviate the problem is confusing and frightening, and the dizziness compounds the usual fibro fog to a truly awful degree. Sometimes simple conversations can get a little confusing. If I find out that the dizziness is permanent, at least that's a place I can work from. Not knowing is the hardest part of this.

And I feel like I'm complaining a lot here lately, for which I apologize. I know this isn't anything more than really inconvenient in an absolute sense. Yes, it may change my life in some extreme ways, but things could be a lot worse. That said, it's still pretty frightening. The kinds of changes I may have to contemplate are far-reaching and I wish I didn't have to think about them. Today's confusion and stress really just made things worse, but I'm doing my best to talk to people and keep on top of things.

Sometimes, however, a hug would be really nice.
erynn: Gaelic merman image (Ganesha)
I got a text back from one of my NYC friends that I contacted and he will be happy to have me stay and to show me around the city a bit if I need to get out there for the Lammys. [ profile] witchchild says that she wants to come to NYC to see me if I'm there, so that would be fantastic, too.

I got to go to the monthly Krakens steampunk social this evening with some friends, which I enjoyed. We talked about travel and politics and social responsibility and stuff like that. I talked about some of the changes in my life happening because of the constant dizziness. I'm not at the point of making an actual decision at the moment, but I am giving some serious thought to moving to Venice, where everyone walks, if I have to sell my place and move anyway. I've spent the last couple of weeks doing a lot of research into the idea and, while the paperwork would likely be a nightmare (when is bureaucracy not?) it does look doable. Toward that end, I was pointed to Duolinguo, a language-learning site that you can use to learn Italian, Spanish, German, French, Portuguese, and English. It's a pretty straightforward system and I've been playing around with it today for a while. Italian looks a lot easier than Irish, at least, in that it's a pretty regular looking romance language.

On the down side of things, I'm still feeling pretty crap and very tired. The dizziness makes it hard to focus for very long on anything, so even with relatively easy language lessons, it's something that turns my brain to much after about 15 minutes and I have to struggle beyond that. This, of course, is why I'm not working on my Brigid book for the moment. I need to get more used to dealing with this in order to focus on serious stuff. But maybe taking little bits of language work a few times a week -- between this and Irish -- I can work back up to being able to focus on my nonfiction.

One of the things that I would usually do for stress relief is meditation, which usually has a breathing component for me, but deep breathing is one of the things that makes the dizziness a little worse, so it's kind of counterproductive at the moment. I find that terribly frustrating. Actually, everything about this right now is very frustrating. Still, I'm doing my best to carry on. Sorry I'm going on so much about it lately. I'm trying to keep things in perspective.
erynn: Gaelic merman image (Sunny Day)
Once again sleep did not find me until it was already light out, but at least I spent the night working on the story I'm doing. I made some pretty good progress last night and will probably do some more writing tonight, crawling into bed with my laptop.

The weather was absolutely gorgeous today, up in the 70s - it's still 54 here at the moment, which is about what it's been in the daytime of late. [ profile] gra_is_stor came by and picked me up so we could go get groceries. I asked if she'd haul me to the mall so I could get some new jeans, as one of my pairs died a couple of weeks ago and the one I'm wearing now is about to give up the ghost as well.

Some of what I did ended up being standing waiting in one place for some time, which was more exhausting than I would have thought. The dizziness is still making things like that hard on me, and I was pretty fried when we got back to my place. She took her groceries home then came back over for a little bit to watch an episode of Raffles with me. Gods the innuendo in that show. I'm sure it wasn't directly intended but wow. Damned near inescapable and hilarious at the same time. Needless to say, I'm rather enjoying the whole thing.

Tomorrow (today really) is Irish class in the evening. Monday I have an audiology appointment. Saturday is the Sherlock Seattle picnic and the last of the season's Medieval Women's Choir concerts, presenting music by Hildegard of Bingen. Tuesday is the monthly steampunk social that most folks actually attend -- I don't know yet if I'll be going. It will depend on whether I can get a ride. I don't know if a place has been set for it or if it'll be at the AFK again. I'll have to check with folks and ask.

I'm still thinking a lot about what I need to do if things don't go well for me with the medical stuff. I'm spending too much time frustrated and depressed about it. That said, I'm doing my best to keep on doing what needs to be done; I'm staying as positive as I can, but contemplating any change like this is pretty overwhelming. I have plots and ideas, though. We'll see what happens.
erynn: Gaelic merman image (Spock Paper Scissors)
Today was errand day and [ profile] gra_is_stor came by around 1 to help me get out and do things. I went to bed about 6am and was awakened at 10 by one of the groundskeepers wandering by the bedroom window, which set the dog off. I went back to sleep and got a little bit more before the alarm went off at noon. I was, needless to say, still rather slow when I finally got myself together and out the door.

A few things got dropped in a mailbox, I got my hair cut and bleached, and I grabbed some things at Albertson's that I usually get there because they're cheaper. When I got home, I re-dyed my hair. [ profile] gra_is_stor hauled Garuda over for the necessary emissions check so my tabs can be renewed; she's not really able to be in a hair salon due to the fumes, so she went and did that for me while she waited.

After that I hung out online with some folks and watched the Star Trek reboot movie from a couple of years ago -- several folks I know are planning on going to the new one on opening day, and folks were getting themselves into the proper mood for it. I've been poking a bit at my fic, though I'm kind of cold and feeling crappy at the moment, so I'll be crawling into bed with the laptop to work on it some more.

Tomorrow the Snohomish Mensa TGIF is happening at Emory's just down the street, so I'll be popping by there about 6pm for an hour or two. I believe Sunday there is a Gamelan Pacifica concert.

May 6th I have an audiology appointment. I feel busy but not particularly accomplished at the moment. I usually feel like I'm doing more with my time. The dizziness is probably affecting my perception as much as anything else.

I really need to get some new jeans.
erynn: Gaelic merman image (asclepius rod)
I got mail yesterday from the VA scheduling me for another audiology appointment, though I'm not entirely certain what this one is for. I'd thought the one on the 17th was my follow-up, but this is for the 6th. Unfortunate dizziness continues apace as I contemplate what to do should this condition be permanent.

I got an email inviting me to a friend's birthday party in Vancouver yesterday, but didn't have enough time to arrange a bus trip up there or someone to drive me, so I had to email and send my regrets. Apparently a previous email got eaten by the aether, which I really regret. I would have loved to be there.

Yesterday I posted a fic I'd been working on for a fandom exchange, and have got some lovely comments on it. I'm currently working on another, though that will take quite a while to write. I'm expecting it to be quite long, and have it pretty thoroughly plotted out. I had wanted to write yesterday and today but have only been able to get a little focus today, late in the evening. I've done about 1200 words so far and might do a little more, so as to feel like this scene is finished, before I give up for the night.

Thursday [ profile] gra_is_stor is supposed to take me for a haircut and to get Garuda in for an emissions test. She can't really be in the salon, as the chemicals will make her pretty sick, but she can take Garuda off for the test and then wait for me down at the nearby Starbucks if she's done before I am.

Mom called to let me know she's back from Atlanta. Apparently the officer who was organizing the ship's reunion was a complete dick, so they didn't stay very long. Somehow this fails to surprise me. His answer to "why doesn't the hospitality suite have chairs or anything other than really inadequate nibbles" was "this is a meet and greet, not a stay and eat." Yeah, thanks. Lots of older folks, some of whom might actually be disabled? You get chairs so people can sit and talk, you stupid fucking wanker. Titanium sporks at dawn.

Still not thrilled with my situation, but surviving. As you do.
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So today I got strapped into a chair in a pitch-black booth with heavy goggles over my eyes. I was spun around, had lights flashed around in front of my eyes, and a variety of other things which left me very queasy as well as much more dizzy than I was when I walked in the door. Cold and warm air were squirted into my ears. Other things were done.

Current end result: my ears both respond kind of differently though both are within normal parameters. They are fine when tested by themselves but for some reason they are not working properly together, and that's what's making me dizzy. The why has not yet been figured out.

I have an appointment to talk with a doc on May 17th, which is about three weeks. I was told that if it's a benign positional vertigo thing, it should resolve spontaneously within three to six months of onset, which still includes probably an awful lot of Not Driving. This is currently inconvenient but my best-case scenario.

If it is for some reason migraine-related, things are not looking quite so positive. That would mean they have to figure out how to actually treat my migraines (and the related dizziness), and the system has shown no particular useful response to that as yet. I get very sick on pretty much everything they have given me in the past and the best I can do for them is knock the pain back some with tylenol with codeine and wait them out. My hope for an actual resolution if that is the case is vanishingly small, as I have very little faith in the VA's neurology clinic regarding migraine treatment. If they can't do anything about it, I may have to regard this as essentially permanent, though I don't want to have to consider it that way just yet.

Needless to say, I was really wiped out by the time I got done at the audiology clinic. I staggered down to the travel office with [ profile] gra_is_stor to pick up my cash, then we stopped at an Indian place for a little dinner (at 5pm it was my first meal since about midnight last night, due to instructions not to eat for 4 hours prior to the appointment), and grabbed a few things for dinner with Denny & Rebecca tomorrow. I crashed pretty hard for a while and will probably be going back to bed again soonish anyway.

In really cool news, [ profile] gra_is_stor got asked to record an Irish lullaby with [ profile] nathan_fhtagn. I had hoped to get the two of them in the same place with an opportunity to talk about music in hopes that something like this might happen eventually, so yay for success, and go go gadget networking skills! She's off to Portland tomorrow morning for an Irish immersion course over the weekend. I'm sure I'll hear more about this project as it develops.

I'm actually really glad that, even when I feel like complete and utter crap, I manage to get a few things done with happy results.
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I went down for my shrinkage today and talked with her about how the whole dizziness thing is getting to me. It was good to get some of that off my chest and to get a little feedback on it.

Tomorrow is a two to three hour test that is pretty much guaranteed to make me miserable, as it's designed to attempt to make you dizzy so they can figure out what might be causing the whole thing. I'm not really looking forward to this very much. I am not supposed to eat anything four hours before or to take any meds for dizziness (I don't have any at the moment) or anxiety for 48 hours prior to the test. Thankfully, I haven't needed to take any anxiety meds recently. They did say not to stop taking meds for any other conditions that I might require, so I'm not going to worry about the antidepressants and whatnot.

In the mail I got a note about the appointment with the otolaryngology clinic that I'd been called about earlier this week. The letter says it is apparently some kind of consult with a surgeon to "determine or confirm a problem that was initially diagnosed by another provider." They sent along a form for me to fill out where they pretty much want my entire medical history (and that of my family) in some blanks on two sides of a single sheet of paper. Optimists. So I don't know what went on with the audiology test but apparently something is happening. Maybe I will learn something tomorrow. It's possible that this is just a preemptive scheduling of the followup appointment for the test tomorrow. It's not until the 17th of next month.

As to the writey stuff, the animism anthology that [ profile] lupagreenwolf has been putting together for several years, interrupted by her masters program, is finally together. I received the PDF galley proof today for final corrections, which I dutifully read and have sent to her. She said it will go to press as soon as all final corrections are received, which means in a couple of months I will have a shiny new book to add to my bibliography.
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More of the same in my daily life. Dizziness and feeling under the weather. I wanted to write some fic today and couldn't quite focus enough for even that, which was annoying.

What really bothers me, though, is that a week or so ago the DoDC+3 had some kind of seizure. It mostly affected his front legs, and lasted for a couple of minutes. He seemed fine afterwards. It happened after office hours for any of the local vets, which meant that a visit to the vet would be after-hours and hugely expensive. There's also that "not able to drive" thing that is giving me trouble. He had another one today, not as bad as the previous one -- mostly only affecting one front leg, and lasting about the same amount of time. Again, it was after office hours (about 6:30pm) and he is his usual fine, bouncy self again.

I should take him to the vet when I can get a ride over there with him. I have no idea how much tests and whatnot are going to cost. He's a little more than 8 years old at the moment, which shouldn't be too old for a small dog like him. I wish I knew what to do for him though, as I said, he seems fine afterwards. Have any of you had a critter with a similar problem? If so, I'd love to hear any thoughts or advice. Also, any healing thoughts for the pupulator would be greatly appreciated.
erynn: Gaelic merman image (tree of life)
Despite the fact that I'm continuing on with the dizziness and that it's remaining quite uncomfortable, I've been able to maintain at least a little bit of my social life. I got a ride out to one of the local steampunk social things, that being a small gathering for one of our folks who has been deployed for the last several months and was back for a few days before he's off again until December. Sadly, [ profile] gra_is_stor wasn't able to go along, as she wasn't feeling well, but a ride was arranged nonetheless. Yesterday one of the local Mensa folks gave me a ride to the monthly gathering, which has moved up to Shoreline - there was a presentation on resources for figuring out the veracity of information on the internet. I knew about some of the available resources, but did learn a few things, so that was pretty good.

The Everett Irish lessons are happening on Sundays, and the venue has flaked out on us so they have been permanently moved to my place until further notice. Next week there won't be a class, as our two teachers ([ profile] gra_is_stor and [ profile] ingvisson) are going down to Portland for an immersion weekend.

Talked to my mom briefly today because she emailed about going to Atlanta and worrying about crossing the river before it floods. I was worried that it was a severe weather thing, but it's just that her husband is going to a ship's reunion that's happening there this coming week. No emergencies, yay! They should be leaving first thing in the morning. I'm guessing they're actually probably already on the road, given the time difference.

The dizziness is getting increasingly frustrating and depressing, but I am doing my best to just carry on. Thanks to everyone who has expressed support privately, or in other places on the web. You are greatly appreciated.

In other news, the Esoteric Book Conference is now selling memberships. The date is September 14-15 and I've ordered my membership. Sherlock Seattle has its dates (October 4-6 at the Broadway Performance Hall again) and will be selling memberships beginning early in May. These, at least, are some cool things to look forward to.


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