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This interview is on a website of a writer who is concerned with disability issues. He has a Writer's Roundtable, which is usually a short interview with a writer he's talked to on the internet. He did a fairly lengthy interview with me because of the intersection between writing and disability that I address in some of my work. It's posted here, with an in-depth discussion of how disability impacts my life as a writer, some talk about my article in the Disability and Religious Diversity anthology, and geilt and poetry. If you're interested, please do drop by and give it a look.
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Today I hung out with the folks in #writechat and #poetparty, talking about writing stuff and my recent poetry publication in Written River. Both were a good way to get my mind out of my frantic last couple of days before the road trip.

I got out to the store to run a couple of errands today that needed to be done. Work was done on the Brigid and Sarasvati workshop, and I remembered to scan and print copies of a page that had been forgotten yesterday, and emailed it off to the guy who was making copies of the other things. Further work on that can take place tomorrow. I dug out some copies of articles and such that might be relevant for one or more of the things I'll be doing at Eight Winds.

Speaking of which, does anyone have a copy of either of these articles:

Liminality in Early Irish Literature: The Madness of Suibhne Geilt by Bridgitte K. Slavin, Journal of the Australian Early Medieval Association 2007 (didn't have page numbers)

The Irish Berdman: Kingship and Liminality in Buile Suibhne from Text and Transmission in Medieval Europe, Celtic Studies Publications 2007, pp 17-45

I think I'm reading my notes right on those. Anyway, if you have any idea where I might find copies, please let me know.

[ profile] blindwebster's address was added to the god of navigation. I edited the manuscript for Fireflies at Absolute Zero again and sent it off to Hiraeth Press.

I had lunch today over at Emory's. It was warm and sunny for a while, and I grabbed a cup of clam chowder and a salad out on their back deck, sitting in the sunlight. It was really pleasant, and a good break from the work I was doing. Later, at home, I made some lentil soup and had that for dinner. I may nibble something further before I go to bed tonight.

Tonight is also my flamekeeping shift, and the altar is lit up. I got [ profile] tdancinghands and the sib in contact with one another about the Prague part of my trip. He wants to spend a couple of days there, not having been before, and she's up for that and made a few suggestions about places for him to stay. I sent her email off to him so that they both have each others' email addresses and can work out the details between them. I'm not really in a position to be the go-between right now.

Answered a late email from [ profile] ogam and hope that the answer was helpful. [ profile] ingvisson and [ profile] gra_is_stor are here again tonight, after having spent all day working on her moving.

Tomorrow: laundry, finish packing, finish dealing with the notes for the Brigid and Sarasvati workshop. Everything I can do for the pilgrimage right now is done, as far as I know. If there's anything else, [ profile] vyviane and Jhenah will have to wait until I get home again next Monday before I'll have time and bandwidth to deal with it.
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Today I hung out with the folks in #writechat and #poetparty, talking about writing stuff and my recent poetry publication in Written River. Both were a good way to get my mind out of my frantic last couple of days before the road trip.

I got out to the store to run a couple of errands today that needed to be done. Work was done on the Brigid and Sarasvati workshop, and I remembered to scan and print copies of a page that had been forgotten yesterday, and emailed it off to the guy who was making copies of the other things. Further work on that can take place tomorrow. I dug out some copies of articles and such that might be relevant for one or more of the things I'll be doing at Eight Winds.

Speaking of which, does anyone have a copy of either of these articles:

Liminality in Early Irish Literature: The Madness of Suibhne Geilt by Bridgitte K. Slavin, Journal of the Australian Early Medieval Association 2007 (didn't have page numbers)

The Irish Berdman: Kingship and Liminality in Buile Suibhne from Text and Transmission in Medieval Europe, Celtic Studies Publications 2007, pp 17-45

I think I'm reading my notes right on those. Anyway, if you have any idea where I might find copies, please let me know.

[ profile] blindwebster's address was added to the god of navigation. I edited the manuscript for Fireflies at Absolute Zero again and sent it off to Hiraeth Press.

I had lunch today over at Emory's. It was warm and sunny for a while, and I grabbed a cup of clam chowder and a salad out on their back deck, sitting in the sunlight. It was really pleasant, and a good break from the work I was doing. Later, at home, I made some lentil soup and had that for dinner. I may nibble something further before I go to bed tonight.

Tonight is also my flamekeeping shift, and the altar is lit up. I got [ profile] tdancinghands and the sib in contact with one another about the Prague part of my trip. He wants to spend a couple of days there, not having been before, and she's up for that and made a few suggestions about places for him to stay. I sent her email off to him so that they both have each others' email addresses and can work out the details between them. I'm not really in a position to be the go-between right now.

Answered a late email from [ profile] ogam and hope that the answer was helpful. [ profile] ingvisson and [ profile] gra_is_stor are here again tonight, after having spent all day working on her moving.

Tomorrow: laundry, finish packing, finish dealing with the notes for the Brigid and Sarasvati workshop. Everything I can do for the pilgrimage right now is done, as far as I know. If there's anything else, [ profile] vyviane and Jhenah will have to wait until I get home again next Monday before I'll have time and bandwidth to deal with it.
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Today's major project was meeting up online with Jhenah and [ profile] vyviane, which was about a three hour conference chat as we worked out when and how things were happening. It was a good thing we did this, because I'd accidentally been left out of the loop for a change/shift in the schedule that left me going into a panic until they said that they'd take care of that day and we're just shifting two days of stuff from the schedule I'd been given into one day. It'll make for a rather more full day than I'd quite anticipated, with two different sets of readings/writing exercises, but I think I can live with that. I will probably want/need a down day by that point in the pilgrimage anyway, so it all worked out okay.

I did the outline for the incubation rituals today and shared that, and all the other outlines/exercises/rituals with them that I'd done so far. They've approved everything with only a couple of logistical changes that are perfectly okay by me. The last thing I have to do is write up the closing ritual; for the extra day/theme bit that we're doing, I can write up a quick ogam meditation to go with that so they can use it in more or less the same pattern I was using for the other days and places. They said they'd get back to me on that.

This basically means I have the opening ritual, all of my days of meditations and writing exercises, the incubation and dream incubation rituals, and the Airmed ritual pretty much finished, so only the closing rite needs to be really worried about now. Everything else is fine-tuning and expansion, and a lot of it can just be done from an outline rather than being something strictly scripted. The opening and closing rituals are more along the lines of "needs a script" while the others are just a series of events where everyone participates and contributes to the making of the ritual as it is happening. I still need to send stuff off to [ profile] joyful_storm for her to look over. I'll try to remember that tomorrow while I'm working on the closing ritual.

I think I'm a little better at dealing with sudden (to me) changes when I'm actually in a place where we're right there and things have changed and we just have to get on with it, than with something where I accidentally got left out of the loop. Mostly it was a function of the fact that I don't actually read Facebook, and some of the things were discussed there and not actually on the pilgrimage list.

In other news, over on the Aedicula Antinoi blog, there was a post about the hero-feast of Suibhne Geilt, and my work in the Disability and Religious Diversity anthology was mentioned pretty prominently. I was really pleased by this. I didn't do a ritual for it today, but working on the pilgrimage was a lot of what has been necessary, and I suspect a panic attack was a suitable event for a day dedicated to a poet-madman. ;)

Also today I got an email from Hiraeth Press with the proof of the upcoming issue of Written River, featuring three of my poems as a preview of Fireflies at Absolute Zero, due out this fall. This is due for release on the 20th of June, with a publication date for the hard copy of the magazine due next week, so I'll let you know as soon as I hear anything, so if you want a paper copy you can actually get one. I'll be getting at least one myself.

[ profile] alfrecht sent me an essay he did on syncretisms of Minerva, which he'd mentioned yesterday when I saw him. It concerns some possible syncretisms with Brigid, and a mention of a Sulis perpetual flame that I hadn't heard about before, so I'm going to be looking those bits up when I have time and bandwidth, and possibly adding mention of them to my Queering the Flame essay for the Queer Magic anthology. He says that should be ready by end of the year-ish, if all goes well. It'll be nice to have that done. I'm very much looking forward to having that material available, as I think it's important. I read the essay and found it informative, as his work always tends to be. Some good and useful stuff there and I'll have to dig a little more deeply into it when I get home.

I spent time in #writechat today, and also did a load of laundry. I managed to have the wherewithal to do a little bit of soup from duck broth I had in the freezer, French green lentils, cashew pieces, dried salal berries, a little bit of fenugreek seed, and some sambar powder. I topped it with a couple of small scoops of yogurt and it was really very good. I was quite pleased.

Overall, a pretty good day (except for the panic attack part) and I got a ton of stuff done.


May. 9th, 2012 12:01 am
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I got a slow start, not waking until about 1:30 this afternoon, but I didn't really even get to sleep until about 7:30 this morning, so I suppose that's fair enough. Today's post brought [ profile] man_of_snows's chapbook, Slow Depth, which I expect him to sign when I see him again.

Dishes and laundry got done, though not much else in a physical sense. I spent a few hours today working on a response to Teo's What is the Point of Your Religion blog post that I'd mentioned a couple of weeks ago. I've posted it over on my Searching for Imbas blog. I got it together and posted just before I headed out to the AFK for the weekly steampunk social. One other person showed up and we had a lovely conversation.

Upon getting home, I finished up dealing with the laundry and stuffed it in drawers. Tomorrow I'm going to attempt to get down into Everett and talk to one of the clerks about the tax exemption. I'm not sure I have everything I need, but I can at least ask, and possibly get missing documentation together if I need to. The county office should have tax records, at least, and I ought to be able to obtain copies of them there somewhere.

Achy parts are aching and I ought to attempt to sleep tonight, though I will probably end up spending some time playing Plants v Zombies again. There has been zero effect on the speed of the intertubes through the wireless router, so I sent a note to that effect in the response email that Cisco sent me yesterday. I have no idea what good it will do, but I may end up digging around under the desk and plugging the cablemodem in there, rather than across the room, then wiring in ethernet and also having the router available for visitors at the lower speed. Regardless, I'm extremely disappointed with the Linksys router and it's lack of anything vaguely approaching an appropriate speed. Yeah, first world problems. I'm glad these are the most serious things I have to worry about right now. Things have been much much worse in the past.
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I hung out in #writechat today, though I only woke up about halfway through it (1:30pm-ish). I had a pretty rough night and what sleep I did get was disturbed and filled with bad dreams. Nothing acutely nightmareish, but enough to leave me feeling exhausted and out of it when I did wake. I did a little talking with folks in #poetparty as well, this evening, but again only got in around halfway through, which was a disappointment; I'd been looking forward to chatting with the other poets who hang out there.

Today I tried a few things that I hadn't before when dealing with Comcast regarding the email issue. It's not just Seanet that's the problem. I tried adding my Gmail account to Mac Mail and that wouldn't send out, either, no matter what I tried. I'll tell them about that when they call back, as it means that this problem isn't isolated to Seanet but is a systemic issue.

I walked down to the store today to pick up kibble for the DoDC+3 and answered some email. I also got rhubarb for the cobbler I'm supposed to make for our Beltaine celebration on Saturday. Tomorrow [ profile] gra_is_stor's bandmates will be having their Beltaine, including a bonfire (provided it's not pouring down rain), and I'll probably be going over there with her. [ profile] ingvisson will be going as well, though we don't know yet what time things are supposed to be happening or the exact logistics of the event.

This afternoon when I was talking to the writers I hang with, I noted that Mandragora is supposed to come out on May 1st -- which I realized is Tuesday. I don't know when my contributor's copy will arrive, but that and Circle of Stones are both due out this month! I'm feeling excited and hopeful about the whole thing.

Tuesday afternoon I'm supposed to go over to UW Bothell and speak at Nicole's class about the geilt and PTSD thing again. I should probably re-read my article tomorrow after I get up to refresh my memory on all this stuff.

I didn't really get anything done toward the pilgrimage today, but I was feeling rather under the weather and didn't get much better as the day went along. Even the walk down to the store didn't help much to invigorate me. I did eat, but not a whole lot. I baked some veggies in the remains of the duck gravy I'd made, then late this evening had the last of the lamb potstickers. I pulled some ground lamb out of the freezer and am hoping to have the wherewithal to make some dolmas tomorrow, as I think I have everything I need. I know I have the grape leaves and I have rice and onions and garlic. It doesn't take that much else, as I recall, though I'll have to look up the recipe again.

I'm going to be crawling off to bed fairly soon and hope that I'm doing better tomorrow.
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It was another gloriously sunny day today, in the high 60s, and I went for a walk around the lake again. I forgot to put the knee brace on first, so I was kind of creaky when I got back (hip as well as knee), but it was a good walk. I stopped for a minute to take a couple of photos of some Canada geese and their goslings on the lake as I was on my way through the park.


When I got back, I wrote up a brief author interview for someone's blog. I'll post a link here if/when he posts it. The interview was about writing and publishing, so a little different than the usual Pagan stuff though, of course, Pagan stuff got mentioned because it's what I write about. He's also interested in disability issues, as he has Spina Bifida and has been in a wheelchair since he was 5, so I also talked a fair bit about the whole geilt and PTSD connection as well, and the challenges of writing with fibromyalgia, chronic pain issues, and migraines.

Today's online Isle of Man trip research netted me a web cafe with wireless access in downtown Douglas, on Victoria Street, open from 9am to 6pm, about 4 miles from the campsite I'll be staying at (and not far at all from the ferry terminal), so I should be able to be online for at least a brief update most days. I've also located Keeil Vreeshey, which is the ruin of a St. Brigid chapel, so I'll be doing my best to get out there while I'm running around. I'm thinking that renting a car for a day or two might be a really good idea so that I can get to some of the more outlying areas easily. My google-fu, let me show you it!

Last night's roast duck is currently being turned into broth for lentil soup for tomorrow. I'll be taking the bones out shortly and stripping the remaining meat from them. I walked down to the Safeway to pick up leeks and some other supplies for the soup and whatnot. I did have some veggies, but not the right sort of thing for lentil soup. I did wear the knee brace for that walk, and it helped a bit, but I had to take it off after I'd been sitting for a while when I got home. I was too tired to do much for dinner, so I made some thick hunks of toast with the kalamata olive bread I have, topped it with some goat cheese, then covered it with gravy I made from last night's roast duck. It was fabulously delicious, and I still have gravy left over, so I can do something like that tomorrow, as well!

Shiuwen from Floating Leaves sent out an email saying that from now until Saturday all the tea is 20% off, as she's clearing the decks for her trip to Taiwan in May to bring home the spring season teas, so I'm going to have to head over there and pick up some of her House Black, if she still has any in stock. I haven't been over in some months and have been out for a while. I've been drinking tea bags of English Breakfast and Irish Breakfast instead of the good stuff. ;)

I talked to Teo Bishop today on Twitter about his blog post and said I was planning on doing a response to it. He was pretty excited by that and was looking forward to seeing what I had to say, and he told me he'd link people over to my post when I have it up over on Searching for Imbas, so that'll be nice.

I did a small crafts/repair project today as well, having nothing at all to do with either the pilgrimage or writing. I have an old eyeglasses case that my glasses came with back in the 90s. It's metal and the little plastic padded case inside started coming loose. The faux leather outside wore off several years back and it has been just some slippery fabric that was rather difficult to open. I'd dealt with that temporarily by putting some duct tape in the places where I'd grasp it to open it. It was not the best solution, but it was what I could do without really thinking about it. Today I took a hot glue gun to the interior so that the part that's come loose is affixed once again, then I took an old, worn out Tibetan prayer flag and glued that to the outside. The fabric is rough enough to offer a good grip, and decorative enough to be pleasant to look at. There are a couple of photos of the finished project behind the cut here.

Two photos ahead! )
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Today was the CR schmooze; as noted yesterday, I wasn't too clear on what we were to be talking about, but we did have an interesting conversation. A new person showed up whom I'd met last year at Eight Winds, and I don't think we terrified her or anything, so perhaps she'll come back again to talk with us.

My anxiety today was bad enough that I had to medicate for it. I dislike how the anti-anxiety meds make me feel, but they're at least slightly preferable to that horrible feeling of an impending panic attack. It was enough to get me through the evening, thankfully.

I left Everett a little early so that I could drop off stuff about the pilgrimage at East West Books. That was about a two minute stop. Some kind person had stuck their parking tab onto the kiosk so it could be re-used (it had over an hour's worth of time still on it). I used it for a few and stuck it back on the kiosk myself, to pass along the good karma, as it were. After that I hauled myself over to Travelers, where I ran into [ profile] nathan_fhtagn and another friend. I was reading a book but we did have crossover conversation, and Nathan says he'd be interested in coming when I screen the Cthulhu movies from the HPLHS, Call of Cthulhu and The Whisperer in Darkness, so I got a contact email for him and will include him on the list when the dvd arrives and I have some idea when I want to schedule it. He's off for Providence I think this weekend to do some stuff out there (with [ profile] meddevi, perhaps?), so I'll be wanting to schedule it for when he's back.

[ profile] gra_is_stor and [ profile] joyful_storm both came by Travelers for chai. I'll be wanting to talk with [ profile] joyful_storm again about travel stuff, as she's a much more experienced traveler than I am when it comes to the European stuff. She had a couple of suggestions for places to look for light, comfortable, multipurpose clothing that will work for packing into one light carryon bag. She said she'd email me links.

After the schmooze, I went off to Remedy to have tea with [ profile] thewronghands and we sat and talked for about 90 minutes, catching up with a bunch of things. She's only in town for two days, so I was glad to have the chance to see her. She said she liked [ profile] dpaxson's The Way of the Oracle that I brought back from PCon for her, though I haven't had the chance to read it yet. I asked if she'd like anything from Ireland and she said that a field guide to Irish plants or trees would be awesome, so I'll see about finding one when I hit a bookshop in Dublin or Sligo. I'm sure there are a fair few of them out there. I know that I like field guides and natural histories, so I'm hoping I'll have a good feel for what she might want in one of those. When I was there last, I bought a field guide to birds because I had seen a few that had fascinated me, but I had no idea what they were. Knowing what I'm looking at helps so much in orienting myself to a new place.

We talked a little bit about traveling solo and other similar stuff, and it turned to Badass Women In Seattle (we're looking at you, [ profile] lakmiseiru, [ profile] canyonwren, and [ profile] varina8, among many others). There really are a lot of amazing women we know here, who travel the world alone, who climb mountains and kick ass and save lives, who keep on doing astonishing things despite the health problems that nature handed them. I'm so delighted to know so many of you! Lucky Erynn is one lucky Erynn. We also carped about the right-wing and their attempts (far too successful recently) to rescind every fucking right that women have gained in the last 50 years; anyone who thinks we don't need feminism needs to fuck off. I am a human being and I refuse to condone a government that tries to tell me I'm not. GRAR.

I also noted that [ profile] thewronghands really needed to be introduced to [ profile] gra_is_stor because they have a fair bit in common. She said it sounded like an excellent idea, so we shall try to arrange that when she's going to be in town for a bit and we have some scheduling options.

[ profile] druid_medb got back to me and clarified about the whole Eight Winds versus PCon contexts. Both of us were having fibro fog and got a couple of wires crossed, but we're good now, and much more clear on what it was we were both attempting to convey. There are both Eight Winds and PCon components to what we were discussing and we just needed to sit down and sort where the salient points slipped by us. Eight Winds is definitely more of a personal with a few other folks in on it type conversation about some of the warrior stuff, geilta, and PTSD, with another private conversation on other issues, while PCon would be more involved, a lot more public, and more formal.

Tomorrow is my Skype chat with [ profile] vyviane, there may be some steampunkery at the AFK, and [ profile] gra_is_stor will be coming up before her band practice then heading out to play music with her friends. I really have to deal with sheet changing and all that kinda stuff. With my arms hurting like they have been lately, stripping and re-making the bed has been a challenge, so I'm hoping I can get a little help with it before she has to head for the rehearsal space.

Still way too busy, but at least working on getting some things done.
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I woke today about halfway through the Sunday #writechat, which was rather slow and sparsely attended, presumably because it was Easter Sunday and a fair few people were off doing things with family rather than hanging about yattering with fellow writers. Still, I had fun as I usually do. It's an enjoyable crowd.

Laundry was done while I was chatting, then I tossed myself into some clothing and went for a walk around the lake. It was a lovely, warm 68f today, and partly sunny, so it was pretty much ideal for a walk. I very much enjoyed it, and the park was pretty crowded, as you might expect on such a day. My knee was twinging a bit as I went. It wasn't enough to stop me, but it was fairly creaky. I'm probably going to want to talk to the VA about getting a knee brace sometime soon. If I'm going to walk, especially if I'm hiking overseas, I'd like to be a little more sure the knee isn't going to give out on me at an inconvenient moment - not that there's a convenient moment for joints collapsing, but you know what I mean.

Last night I'd walked over to the Safeway and picked up a few things, including a couple of lamb chops, one of which I had for dinner tonight with some asparagus, brown rice, jerusalem artichokes, and a glass of Boujoulais, which suited it quite well. It was all very tasty, and I hadn't really felt much up to cooking recently because I'd been too tired and there wasn't a lot here that I really felt like eating, nor was there much beyond pasta or a can of beans that was just something I could do quickly and without a fair bit of effort. I dislike having so little energy, but I've been taking B vitamins again and it seems to be helping a bit with that. Sadly, it doesn't do jack for the insomnigrackles.

[ profile] druid_medb emailed back about Eight Winds and was very much into opening up the discussion, but I think she took it as being potentially rather more than I'd have the bandwidth to help out with. She suggested maybe a ritual (a tentative suggestion), but I don't have it in me to deal with something that involved before I leave in July. I suggested maybe we could do something at PantheaCon next year instead, considering this is pretty heavy duty stuff and I don't have the skills to deal with it if somebody goes all splodey on us. She certainly has more than I do, but I don't think Eight Winds this year is the right time or place. We'd need a lot more time and preparation to pull something viable together. That said, I do think it's an excellent idea to consider for another time and place. Depending on what's going on next year, maybe at Eight Winds in 2013 instead.

This evening I did some more work on the links document for the pilgrimage preparation. I've got something for all the various places we are (or might be) going, and most of the deities and other figures we might deal with as well, so we'll see if this is what Vyviane had in mind when she asked for something. We'll talk on Tuesday at some point, so I don't have too much longer to wait and see if I need to deal with this differently.

Monday is the CR schmooze. I guess the idea is dealing with a definition of cosmology. I'm not in charge of this ride, so I'm not too terribly worried about it. I've got other things to keep my brain spinning its wheels. I'm also meeting [ profile] thewronghands for tea afterwards for a little bit, pursuant to a conversation elsejournal. Wednesday is Irish class, Thursday is group at the VA (which I should actually get to this time, gods willing) and probably meeting [ profile] isquiesque afterwards. I may also be seeing another friend, but am not so certain on that one. I was supposed to see her last Thursday but something came up and she asked to reschedule for this week. Saturday is a birthday party, Sunday is the Great Spring Ceremony at the Shinto shrine and a chat with some of the people from Sisterhood of Avalon. All in all, a pretty full week. I hope I have the braincells.
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I was contacted a week or so ago by [ profile] druid_medb about the article I'd written on geilta and warrior stuff. She's a vet herself and has been working as a veterans advocate for people working their way through the VA system. As seems to be a thing at the moment, there's a lot of interest in the more mainstream spiritual and counseling communities in rituals and approaches to dealing with PTSD for returning veterans, and the work our group has been doing, and a fair bit of my own work and writing falls within that area. I sent her off the geilt article and she was very interested in the whole thing. She asked the other day if we could talk while we're at Eight Winds this June, and I suggested maybe we could do an impromptu discussion of the material with interested folks who might be in attendance.

She said that there would probably be a number of vets/military there, and some folks on the treatment/services side as well, who would undoubtedly be interested in such a discussion. So we're looking at how to put this together, when we might do it, and what we'll want to do about distributing the article and other potential material when we're there. I may end up hauling copies of a few things depending on how many people would consider joining the discussion.

In line with this, A is going back to the middle east soon and asked if we would do the warrior blessing ritual again in May, before he leaves. The local group is in planning for that. We have a couple of potential dates and the organizing committee is looking for a place to do it. Last time, we did it out at my place, also using the tiny park across the street at the lake. We're doing a much shorter version of the ritual this time, as he's already been through it once, so it won't be an overnight vigil but a more condensed version to only take about 3 to 4 hours.

I had a short text exchange with Vyviane about scheduling a discussion regarding the upcoming chat with the Sisterhood of Avalon about the pilgrimage and my work. We'll be talking on Tuesday afternoon (my time). She's been out of town and very busy and won't have time until after Monday, and I need to catch up with her and make sure everything I'm working on is what needs to be done. As I've said many a time before, not having ever done this previously, I don't necessarily know if what I'm spending time on is actually what needs to be done, so I'm feeling a little tentative. She's done this for years now and knows what all is expected and what works and what needs to be done, but I feel rather like I'm groping in the dark. Getting a reassuring word now and again helps me feel like I'm on the right track and doing what I should be working on.

A trip to the grocery store netted some rhubarb and some early strawberries (a two-for-one package sale). I may end up doing a cobbler, though I haven't decided if I want it to be strawberry-rhubarb or just rhubarb. With strawberries, I often feel it's too sweet, but these are probably not the ripest strawberries on the planet and therefore not necessarily overly sweet. It might work out well. If [ profile] gra_is_stor is feeling better soon, I might do the cobbler with a gluten-free crust so that she can have some, too. The strawberries, regardless, would go very nicely with my honey yogurt anyway. I froze the remainder of my pseudo-posole this afternoon so that I can have it later instead of having to eat it all right away. Yay freezers!

Tomorrow, #writechat, #poetparty, and laundry, along with whatever note-making and writing I can get together toward the trip again. I opened up the notebook I'll be using for the pilgrimage and trip to Europe and wrote that in the first page, slipping one of the pilgrimage postcards into the little pocket in the back. I'll add all the contact stuff, a list of folks I'm tying ribbons onto the clootie trees for, and travel information to it in the next few days. I got one with blank rather than lined pages, and will be sticking in bits of maps, making notes, and stuffing it with postcards as I go along, as well as various meditations and journal entries. I'll use it as my writing notebook for our ritual and creative writing/poetry prompts work as well. I may or may not have it full up when I get home, but I'm intending it to be a record of my journey.
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Today I got email from Scarlet Imprint about the Mandragora anthology, which is due for release in its initial edition on May 1st:

Dear Friends,

Our latest title, Mandragora: Further Explorations in Esoteric Poesis, edited by Ruby Sara, is now available for subscriber pre-order.

Pulled from the ground, its shrieks threatening madness, carved and anointed, given form and breath… so it is, the Word walks.

Mandragora is a companion volume to Datura, and some 100 pages larger, comprising nine extensive essays and the works of 48 poets. If you enchant, incant or evoke this is essential reading.
We are committed to the art of poetry.

It has been a major undertaking, and now the mandrake gives forth its fragrance.

Our poets and writers are:

Adriano Camargo Monteiro, Adrienne J. Odasso, Alexander Cummins, Alison Leigh Lilly, Anna Applegate, Anthony Rella, Ariana Dawnhawk, Brock Marie Moore, Caroline Carver, Chris Page, Christopher Greenchild, Craig Fraser, Erynn Rowan Laurie, J/J Hastain, Jenne Micale, Jennifer Lawrence, Jessica Melusine, Jimmy T Kirkbride, Jose Leitao, Juleigh Howard Hobson, Juliet Johns, Katie Anderson, KH Solomon, Levannah Morgan, Literata Hurley, Mama Whodun, Mark Mandrake, Mark Saucier, Mark Valentine, Michael Routery, Mike Slater, Miriam Axel-Lute, Orryelle Defenstrate-Bascule, Paul Holman, Paul B.Rucker, Peter Dube, Peter Grey, Phil Legard, P. Sufenas Virius Lupus, Rebecca Buchanan, Ruby Sara, Scott Schroder, Shaun Johnson, Slippery Elm, Stuart Inman, T.Thorn Coyle, Valentina Cano, Voxx Voltair.

In addition to the rich wilderness of poetry represented in these pages, Mandragora also presents nine essays on the nature of the strange, mad, chymical wedding of poet and magic, and the occult euphoria that follows it through time and space. Throughout these pages we glimpse the ghost of Orpheus, that god-touched and wandering patron of verse, in explorations of the poet as seducer of the gods, the role of verse in ritual theatre, and the poet in relationship with the Muse. Twice we are invited to fix our hearts on the lives and works of specific voices from the history of esoteric poetry in essays on Ted Hughes and Fernando Pessoa. The prophetic voice of the poet is explored, specifically in relationship to Brigid, as is the role of poetry in the grimoire tradition, the use of the cut-up technique in poetry and magic, and the relationship of poetry to the ongoing conversation between science and occult practice. In these essays the poetic word is grounded in tradition and history, rooted in thought – a face given form and a spirit animating its limbs.


The Poet as God-Seducer - P.Sufenas Virius Lupus
Black Venus and Wise Hermes - Phil Legard
On Cut-Up - Alexander Cummins
A Spell to Awaken England - Peter Grey
Magical Verse in Ritual Theatre - Orryelle Defenestrate-Bascule
Burying the Poet - Erynn Rowan Laurie
On Pessoa - Jose Leitao
Houses of Death - Jimmy Kirkbride
Head of Orpheus - Michael Routery

Mandragora - Further Explorations in Esoteric Poesis
Various, Ruby Sara (Ed)

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I got email the other day from Justin Moore, who did the wonderful and fascinating presentation at last year's Esoteric Book Conference on The Library Angel. He's apparently developed an interest in things druidic, and the bardic traditions. He'd been interested in some of my work previously but hadn't realized who I was when we met at the conference until he was on his way back to Cincinnati. Sadly, he won't be attending this year, but we did talk a bit about the differences between the romantic/antiquarian druidic traditions and the more reconstructionist approaches in our brief email exchange; he also had a few questions about some of my earlier work, particularly the essay in Philip Carr-Gomm's The Druid Renaissance. I'm hoping to hear from him again soon, if he has time.

Today was a new session with the VA spirituality group. We have a couple of new people, which will change the dynamics slightly, but the women who come to join us have usually been pretty good people, so I'm looking forward to participating with them.

A little further discussion has been had on the cover design for the new edition of Circle of Stones, and I have to remember to find some time this weekend to find a couple of sample graphics for Andy, and to look at some font collections for the cover text.

Tomorrow is my outing for the steampunked Pirates of Penzance at the Village Theatre in Everett. There may be snacks before or dinner after, though I haven't got all of that cleared with [ profile] gra_is_stor just yet. I know it will be quite the contingent, and all in our steamy finery. My head is twinging slightly tonight, so I'm hoping I won't be migraining tomorrow, as that would be exceedingly inconvenient. Rain and wind have been a bit much today, though the drive home from Seattle did provide me with a really nice rainbow arcing almost straight up into the sky as I came around the curve on I5 toward the Lynnwood/44th Street exit.

Nicole has asked me once again to come and speak to her class about the geilt and PTSD paper on May 1st, which I will most likely do unless I find myself swamped with too many things to do. I do need to put that into the calendar.

More stuff is going on than my brain can handle, I sometimes think. I did get a little more reading done in one of the Brigid books I've been working my way through. I need to take another look at the pilgrimage preparation timetable and see what's next on my list. Today on Twitter I made the acquaintance of a folklorist and (apparently) botanist going by @irishflora working at the Folklife Branch of the National Museum of Ireland in County Mayo. She'd been tweeting some stuff about ogam and trees, and a couple of people recommended my book to her, so we had a short chat before I had to head into Seattle today; she seemed really interested in my book and said if the pilgrimage group was able or interested, we should come by the museum. She says it's not all that far from Sligo, though I'm not sure what "not far" means in this context. I took a look at a map but am not certain of the scale of things in terms of travel and whatnot. Still, it would be fascinating if there's time at all while we're in Sligo for that part of the trip. She says that part of her work involves education on participation and ownership of Irish culture, heritage and tradition, which is of course right up my alley. I'm sure we'll have some interesting conversations, even if I don't get over to the museum while we're there.

So much stuff. So little time.
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I finally finished one of the books I'd got from the Suzzallo today, and hauled it back. The last few sections didn't have much that I actually needed or was particularly interested in at this point. I was too tired to do much else today. I'd really intended to be in bed before now, but such things are sometimes not to be. The group at the VA today was pretty good and I was glad I'd been able to make it.

Next week there's no group and I'll be going up Tuesday to see [ profile] mael_brigde to help her out, as she had surgery today. I'll be gone from the 19th to the 22nd helping take care of her, and visiting with Bruce and Heather and possibly Pete if I get in touch with him beforehand. I know he's been busy with a just-released Bruce Lee documentary.

It looks like [ profile] lupagreenwolf and [ profile] smcinpdx will be up tomorrow and I'll probably meet them at the AFK, as she wants to show him the place. I've been invited out to play Munchkin tomorrow there too, so that's probably what will happen.

I wanted to do some work on the pilgrimage packet stuff today, but got sidetracked. Initial deadline for some of that material was supposed to be today, but I know that [ profile] vyviane and Jhenah are a little behind the ideal schedule as well, so I'm not feeling too bad about it as yet. I did get my Queering the Flame paper off to Jhenah, who is doing her Masters on conclaves of holy or fairy women, particularly those living on islands. She wanted to know if there was any evidence for pre-Christian flametending practice for Brigid, but I had to say that I hadn't really found any. Best to offer the evidence I'd found; there's enough information in there for her to chase down some other stuff that's non-Brigidine, which should be useful to her anyway.

I also got an email from [ profile] druid_medb today asking about the warrior rituals, and working on a project of rites of return and healing for people in spiritual communities. Part of her work is on spiritual healing and PTSD, which is - as everyone here knows - a deep interest of mine. I sent off a copy of one of the final drafts of the paper on geilt and PTSD for the Disability and Religious Diversity anthology. She's considering proposing a ritual for PantheaCon next year, so I referred her over to [ profile] alfrecht. Both of us are behind the idea.

I know that Selena Fox of Circle Network did a ritual for vets this year (which I didn't attend), so it would be interesting to see a script for that one and check out what has been done, and what veterans might do for one another, as opposed to civilians attempting to serve a community of veterans.

[ profile] gra_is_stor's bandmate loaned me his Thermarest sleeping pad to see if it was going to work out for me for my camping trip, but it's not got enough loft to be good for my back, and it's very short. I'm going to have to look into the more expensive ones at REI to see if they would fit the bill any better. I still have some time before I will have to have one, so I'll have a little time to save up to get something that would work for me with the fibromyalgia and the bad hips and shoulders.

I feel like I didn't get much done today, but looking at it, I did get a few things together that needed to be done, and they were in fact important things. Sometimes I feel like if I'm not constantly busy, I'm not actually accomplishing anything but that's certainly not the case. I need to be more forgiving of myself and my use of time. I do get things done; I do a lot of work, I just don't always recognize it.
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I tried to post this last night but the intertubes failed me. I will now attempt to reconstruct what I posted because most of this thing was eaten by the Aether Elves.

Overall, the day was a really good one. I got my neck cracked, which helped with the headaches but didn't do much for the shoulders and some particular spots in my neck. Conversations were had with many friends and acquaintances. I went to the Pagans and Media panel, which mostly wasn't actually about media issues at all but rather talked around the Z and transphobia controversy from last year's con.

I grabbed a meal with Gus, had lunch with Vyviane and Jhenah where we planned our day by day itinerary for the pilgrimage, and had dinner with about 10 of my friends and new acquaintainces after the end of [ profile] alfrecht's final workshop of the night.

My own Brigid and Sarasvati workshop went very well, with lots of good questions and discussion. Sadly, my experience was a bit marred by a woman who came up to me afterward; she asked initially if I taught anywhere. I said that I only taught at Pagan events because I didn't have any degrees. That question led to the inevitable question of what I actually do for a living. I noted I live on a VA disability pension, whereupon she declared "you don't look disabled." Things rather went downhill from there, resulting in her insisting that my fibro would go away if I would just have a good cry about 15 times a day and let out all that emotional stress. She was standing way too close and in my face about it, which was making me uncomfortable on top of her wrongheaded insistence that weeping was some sort of miracle cure. She also had the temerity to demand several times that I stand and deliver poetry to her because if I write it, I must be able to instantly produce it or that I had my entire corpus of poems memorized.

I may be a fili in the sense that I am a poet working, in a sense, within the early Gaelic tradition, but that doesn't mean I do on-demand extemporaneous poems for random strangers who have been offending me. It's a much more complicated process than that. There was, of course, also the "I know you better than you know yourself" moment in our conversation where she insisted that I was about to cry and should just let it out -- she could see it behind my eyes and would be oh so honored if I'd release all that emotion in front of her.

The only emotion I was trying not to release at that time was a boot to the fucking head.

When we had to vacate the room for the next setup, she asked if she could have dinner with me and I told her, entirely truthfully, that I was going to another session right afterwards ([ profile] alfrecht's queer Celtic deities session) that happened to be right there as the next session in the same room.

Dinner was, happily, taken up with good friends and a talk with a young Marine from San Diego whom Tagh had been telling about some of my/our work in the Seattle community regarding the warrior rituals and the geilt phenomenon. That, and a concurrent discussion of Pagan history and such, went on until about 2:30am, whereupon I decamped to my room.

This morning, checkout, then going to [ profile] finnchuill's session on Immram, Echtra, and Aisling.
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Via [ profile] tdancinghands, a page with some material on the NDAA from the Portland Wiki. It links to actual texts of the legislation, and to several articles from the Huffington Post, so take those particular links for what they might be worth.

I didn't go to yoga today, as I was too creaky first thing when the alarm went off. I did go later for my monthly shrinkage, however. Even just an hour makes a huge difference to me in how much I can cope with in any given day. I didn't sleep well last night, being crampy all night long from my VA visit yesterday. The dog was restless as well, which didn't help. At this point, I'm contemplating dropping the yoga group because, while I'm mostly enjoying the yoga itself, I'm just not up to being in Seattle by 2pm most days. I usually do 3pm appointments by choice when I have the ability to choose.

We went to Travelers after I got out of the VA, where we met Patrick, then we headed off for the CR monthly business meeting. We got the first quarter of the year sorted, and I have to work on writing the Imbolc ritual. I've uploaded the two files I told people that I would put on the list for folks who wanted to read more stuff about the geilta and PTSD. We also decided that we were going to permanently move the schmooze back to second Mondays of the month -- we'd been doing first Mondays because [ profile] wire_mother already had a commitment that night, which doesn't exist anymore, so the second Monday is probably better for everyone anyway. First Monday tends to conflict with holy days at the beginnings of the month.

Tomorrow I have my spirituality group, then hanging out for a bit at Travelers until the traffic clears a little. Friday [ profile] gra_is_stor will be heading over to the AFK with me to meet with Gary and Melody and a few other folks for food and some gaming. Saturday is the Medieval Women's Choir concert and Sunday is the new Sherlock Holmes with the steampunks.

I really need to breathe. Thursday and/or Friday I have to do laundry. I really don't want to go about naked in this weather.

Breathing. Breathing is good.
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Today was some writey stuff, and I posted one of my short fics for a fic exchange after having banged it out (1200-ish words) in its entirety in a few hours before getting ready to head for Seattle.

We dropped things off at [ profile] gra_is_stor's place then grabbed some lunch at Mirch Masala on Broadway, before heading over to Travelers for a bit. I finally finished reading Heroic Poets and Poetic Heroes after about 18 months, so I can now return it to the Suzzallo. About damned time, really.

The schmooze this evening went pretty well, though we didn't have our entire usual crowd, given holiday work schedules and other issues. I think we had a good conversation and we talked about ways to apply what we'd been learning over the course of the year. Several suggestions for potential classes or workshops were touted, some of which I'm sure we'll implement in the course of the next year. We also decided that in January, we'd talk about the deities we work with and what kinds of things we do to honor them. We'll be having our monthly business meeting to decide on February's stuff and figure out what to do for Imbolc next Wednesday (not this one coming up).

One thing that there was some significant interest in was further information about the whole geilt concept. I need to remember to post a couple of things to the Puget Sound CR group for folks to read on that. There was also some desire for a workshop on ogam as well. Moss noted that there would probably be a good deal of interest in both of these things in the larger community, but we had planned on making some of these classes open beyond just our group anyway, so when we do schedule these things, he can certainly pass the word along.

On the way home I picked up a few things I needed at the grocery store, though I have yet to go through and do my major shopping run for the month. That will probably take place this week, though.

Tomorrow I have the weekly steampunk social at AFK, which I'm quite looking forward to. There will no doubt be nefarious plotting for the upcoming New Years Recovery Tea.
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I was just out checking the mail and what should appear in my box but my contributor's copy of Disability and Religious Diversity: Cross-Cultural and Interreligious Perspectives from Palgrave Macmillan. I haven't had time to go through it yet, but I'm all excited to have yet another piece in print, particularly in an academic book. I feel very proud and excited to have made it into such a collection, particularly given my lack of higher education. I've taken a couple of stray college classes over the years, but even by the most generous estimate, I haven't even got a first year's worth of credits for any of it. I see it as an affirmation of my hard work and my discipline as a writer and researcher that my work was seen as being of good enough quality to be included, and to have received so little editing from the editorial team.

Today's email also brought notice that contributors to the Datura anthology from Scarlet Imprint will be receiving a contributor's copy of that volume, which pleases me greatly. Many thanks to Ruby Sara and to the folks at Scarlet Imprint for this -- it's very much appreciated.

I've been a bit headachy so far today, so these were both very nice things that have helped to balance out the health ick. Thank you world!
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I headed out shortly after I got up today for the AFK, where they have ethernet connections available and made myself ready to do battle with the download of iOS 5 for the iPad. I'd tried several times from home to do the download and got timed out, so I figured a hard connect would probably be more reliable. Sadly, the first attempt, even there, took a couple of hours and resulted in another timeout. While I was waiting and watching the microscopic crawl of the initial attempt, I worked on a new post for my Searching for Imbas blog.

One of my friends had a dream last night that featured yours truly, and the dream carried some strong resonances of a figure called Muirgeilt. As you might guess from the name, she would be of some interest to me -- geilt being the sort of sacred madness I've been researching because of Suibhne and the whole mad poet trope in Irish myth. Anyway, I wrote a post about Muirgeilt where I explore what was going on with the images in my friend's dream and talk about why they're significant. That took most of the time while I was waiting the first instance of the download.

Thankfully, the second attempt was over and done with inside of twenty minutes, so I've got the iPad updated with the new OS and we'll see whether that makes any genuine difference in my use. It's apparently added a bunch of stuff, but a lot of it I'm not inclined to use, given my primary focus on writing with a little websurfing from that platform.

While I was doing the updating stuff, I worked on expanding the Mandragora piece that I'd finished last week. This will be the third real draft of the essay and I got it up to 3613 words today before I sent it off to [ profile] finnchuill. I think I hit all the things he was asking me to deal with or expand upon.

I'm going to see if I'm feeling up to driving down to Seattle tomorrow to see [ profile] sebastian_lvx for chai, but my sinuses and my ears are off, and I may not be in much shape to be leaving the house. Coming down with a cold is never any fun, yet I do have to pick up some more valerian root and feverfew, and possibly something else for the cold, if I have a chance to talk with Leon. It's very frustrating, though I'll admit I've been pushing myself pretty hard of late. I'm starting to feel that hot ache in my joints that definitely says "you are getting sick." Staying home in bed most of the day may actually be the wiser choice for me tomorrow. We'll see what happens.
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First up, [ profile] finnchuill has sent me the text of the PCon proposal for our joint session:

The Vision Poet

Poets have held roles as seers and visionaries in many archaic and traditional cultures worldwide, performing and practicing as intermediaries with the sacred. In the modern era, certain poets reclaimed/reinvented the poetry of the see-er, including Arthur Rimbaud, the Surrealists, and later the Beats. Today some of us are reconstructing archaic seer-poet traditions like that of Gaelic filidecht, along with working within the modern visionary poet lineages mentioned. Listen to two poets, Erynn Rowan Laurie and Michael Routery, talk about these practices. Writing exercises will follow, so bring something to write with.

Secondly, there's a link up for the book with my geilt and ptsd article in it. They have managed to misspell my middle name but I've sent them an email with a request to fix it dammit (thanks [ profile] lysana). The book is titled Disability and Religious Diversity: Cross-Cultural and Interreligious Perspectives and due to be released on October 25th from Palgrave Macmillan.

This makes a total of two books and twelve anthologies containing my work so far. Pretty good for a professional madwoman, eh?


Sep. 13th, 2011 12:37 pm
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From my editors with the disability and world religions anthology:

Dear Contributors:

We are happy to report that the page proofs and indexes have been submitted and as far as we know, the books are ready to go to print. October 25 is the predicted release date for both books! It is our understanding that each of you will receive a complimentary copy of the book in which your chapter appears. We will let you know when we have a concrete release date.

As always, we are grateful for each of your contributions. The initial reviews have been very positive and we look forward to seeing the completed books.
Darla and Mike
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About as I expected, I'm fried to a crispy crisp today. I did get the okay for the Wednesday yoga group at the VA, though, so will be down there this week for my first session, 2pm to 3:15pm.

Wednesday is also the schmooze business meeting, wherein we discuss the Samhain ritual and the upcoming annual meeting.

I got an inquiry today from Nicole Torres about presenting my geilt and PTSD essay to her class at UW Bothell on Medicine, Illness, and Culture. We'll be meeting up Wednesday afternoon at Travelers to discuss details.

While at the Esoteric Book Conference this weekend, I was informed by Taylor that the ogam book will be available as an e-book later this week. Monday had been bandied about as a likely date, but I haven't heard anything from him today, so I'm still waiting for the link from him. It will be available on Smashwords when it goes live. He had a sign at the Immanion table at the conference with some of next year's releases on it, and Circle of Stones is slated for publication in May of next year. I need to get the finalized stuff together for that. They won't do an audio file for the prayers, but will support my creation of it, and link to a place where it can be got when I have it available. Now I have to make arrangements for that, so I'm in negotiations with [ profile] gra_is_stor for her work.

Hex Magazine staff was at the conference with the newly-released issue #9, which contains the reprint of my Amanita muscaria article. You can order a copy here. Cover art is by Pia Ravenari, a wonderful Australian artist of my acquaintance.

I had a chance to talk at some length with [ profile] brandywilliams and got word direct from her that the Sisters of Seshat are open to anyone who identifies as a woman. I was quite certain this would be the case from the way that gender was discussed in her book, but it was never directly stated there. It is very directly addressed in the FAQ on the group's website. I was asked by David of Fields Books in San Francisco to write up a review for the book for their website. As I was planning on doing a review anyway, I'll be making that available to them for excerpts as they wish.

I'm too tired still to comment about what else happened at the conference, but I do promise a review and to talk about some of the books I was able to pick up there. It was a fantastic and fun weekend and I had a great time with everyone.


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