erynn: Gaelic merman image (all your books!)
I didn't do a whole lot today, as I haven't been feeling too well, but [ profile] gra_is_stor has posted the audio files for the Irish and Gaelic in A Circle of Stones to her BandCamp site. The files are available for $5, with all the money going to her for the work she put into it and to compensate for her editing for the second edition of the book. If you're interested in A Circle of Stones, you'll want this! Please do pass the word to friends who might be interested. And while you're there, check out her music, too! She has five CDs out.
erynn: Gaelic merman image (Magical Sigils)
This afternoon [ profile] druid_medb and I headed down to the VA for group. She waited for me and then we went over to Travelers for some dinner and up to the Hill so that I could take her by Edge and Elliott Bay Books. I dropped her at her hotel down in Pioneer Square in the evening and then headed home. She'll be able to walk to the train station tomorrow morning at OhGod:30. We had a pretty great time and did a lot of work on our presentation. We've got enough stuff together to pretty much take it from the outline we have now, but we can also do some polishing and additional work via email, so we're good on that. I need to remember to scan a couple of things and email them to her.

When I got home, I talked with [ profile] gra_is_stor, who is almost ready to upload the sound files for Circle of Stones. She's working out a few final graphics issues and, with luck, the file will be available (she said $5 but I want to check in with her one final time before I announce that for sure) tomorrow on BandCamp.

I checked a bunch of tickyboxes for Norwescon's panels this evening. We're required to pick 10 or more so that they have an ample field to choose from. I ticked 10 boxes and reiterated my time restriction (nothing before 2pm if possible), so that should be good. Mostly fanfic panels, a couple of writing/publishing panels, a couple of poetry panels. I figure I'll get a few of them and it should be fun.

At the moment, my upcoming schedule is kind of spotty, but I have the following things on it, at least tentatively:

Amanda's Birthday: December 9th
Medieval Women's Choir: December 15th
TENTATIVE: [ profile] mael_brigde: between December 17th-19th
I believe [ profile] ogam gets here December 18th
Queer Pagan Meetup: December 20th
Air Krakens End of the World Masquerade: December 21st
Sigillaria: December 23rd
The Hobbit with Steampunks: December 25th
[ profile] nathan_fhtagn and [ profile] meddevi at the Can Can: December 30th
Shinto New Year: January 1st
Air Krakens Post-Apocalypse Tea: January 1st
Sound of the Baskervilles' Holmes birthday party: January 5th
Seattle Sherlock fandom's Holmes party: January 6th
Abney Park show: January 19th
Bad Movie Night: January 20th

I'm also looking at planning a bad movie party with some of my friends in January.

If I've said I would do something with you and it's not on this, please let me know. My memory is like a steel sieve.
erynn: Gaelic merman image (giftie)
This morning didn't start well. I went to sleep at maybe 4:30am, only to be awakened by landscapers outside my bedroom window running a weedwhacker at 10:30am. Needless to say, this did not make the DoDC+3 very happy. By the third pass near the window, I gave up and hauled myself upright.

Email brought photos from Caitlin of the pomegranate ogam feda she made for me:

Pomegranate ogam feda from Caitlin

They look spiffy, don't they? She works with all kinds of wood and you can see her work or commission pieces from her here.

The mail brought my copies of Fireflies at Absolute Zero today!

Fireflies have arrived!

This means if you pre-order, you should get them before the official release date of October 31st. So dash on over to Hiraeth Press and do that thing! You can even look at the first several pages of the book there. The cover looks much nicer than this lighting makes it seem.

Last in the good news for the day department, [ profile] gra_is_stor reports that she has the preliminary sound files for the Circle of Stones prayers in Gaelic/Irish and will be working on making them nice for uploading so you can buy them soon! I don't know how long that will take, but you'll know pretty much as soon as I do when they'll be available.

Even with all the good news, I barely felt up to leaving the house today. I almost left getting the mail out of the mailbox for tomorrow, but the DoDC+3 had to be walked, so I had to put clothes on anyway. Glad I did.
erynn: Gaelic merman image (writy pooped)
My reminder woke me up at 2 about the appointment I'd cancelled. I still need to reschedule the orthotics fitting appointment. I'll do it when I have braincells.

Last night I ended up finally cutting the silver ring off my finger because it had been causing some nerve impingement for quite some time, making the fibro/tendonitis in my right hand worse. I wasn't thrilled, but I couldn't get the ring off otherwise. There will likely be a dent in my finger for a few weeks until things repair themselves.

I was hoping to get a little done on the upcoming Samhain ritual, but just didn't have the wherewithal. I didn't go to bed this morning until nearly 8:30. I didn't get out this evening to the AFK because I was just too tired. The day was largely taken up with doing some dishes and spudifying in front of the computer reading fanfic, because I couldn't find the brain cells to do anything else.

Tomorrow Qi from the steampunk group is coming by for tea and to see some of my photos from Europe. [ profile] gra_is_stor informs me that she's done some recording of the Gaelic prayers from Circle of Stones and hopes to do some more tomorrow evening at some point. As soon as the sound files are available, I'll let people know. C in Arizona updated my Preserving Shrine website yesterday with info about Fireflies at Absolute Zero so, for the moment, it's got everything up to date. I'll update again when the sound files are available.

My arms hurt. I need to work on the Samhain ritual. I got a nice, supportive note from one of the folks from the schmooze about my departure. This pleased me. We'll probably get together at Travelers from time to time after my VA appointments - we used to see one another at the CapHill Travelers when it was still open.

I'm very tired. Off to bed. I may read a little bit before I sleep, but it's definitely time to crawl off between the sheets.
erynn: Gaelic merman image (lotus)
When I got down to Seattle Center today, I swooped in and snagged [ profile] nancyblue for lunch. We found ourselves at a Brazillian restaurant at the place that used to be Cafe Minnie at 1st and Denny, and I showed her the photos I'd taken last night of the Golden Section Order papers that I had. She'd seen newsletters from Ithel Colquhoun's collection in the UK last time she was there, but hadn't seen any of the documents I have, so we talked about that for a while.

When we got back to the conference, I found [ profile] meddevi, who was there to look at the art and the books. I picked up a few more books that I'd been interested in, including a catalogue of an Austin Osman Spare exhibition from 2010, along with a dvd of his work and life that comes with the volume. I'm very much looking forward to looking through it and watching the dvd. While perusing the books section, I spoke for a while with the folks from the School of Spagyric & Alchemical Arts, who were offering tiny samples of some of their spagyric work with rose, gold, amber, and gold/frankincense/myrrh, all of which were very nice stuff. By the end of the day, Taylor had sold all the copies of both of my books that he'd brought with him, which pleased all of us. He said he would probably have been able to sell a few more of them pretty easily.

I talked to Taylor about the essays and articles I have in the various Immanion anthologies and he said that yes, the contracts have all specified that all authors maintain all rights over their work, and that if I wanted to publish them in an anthology of my own work, they were fine with that. So I need to check with a couple of other publishers to make sure that it would be okay to reprint those, as well, and I might be able to get a collection published of the material I have scattered in a dozen books so that folks can get everything in one volume. That, I might take to Immanion for publication as well -- I haven't thought too much about a publisher yet.

I got the new grimoire from [ profile] aion131 today and am looking at getting one of the ceramics pieces he exhibited at the conference this year. He's taking them over to Gargoyles next. While I was talking with Craig I realized that I might be able to get some of my photos from Prague and Kuntá Hora into Gargoyles as an exhibit and maybe sell some prints of them if any of them are good enough. I was given an old photograph/art printer a few years back and a bunch of photographic print paper, so all I need is someone to help me get things set up and make sure I have the proper ink cartridges for things, and to make sure that some of these things are of good enough quality to actually do this. A few of the photos from the Sedlec Ossuary would need to be slightly cropped to get bits of living people out of them, but I do have some pretty cool stuff and it would be right up Gargoyles' gothy alley. As would the gargoyle photos from St Vitus's Cathedral at Prague Castle.

The after-party was fun, and the Queen Anne Masonic Lodge was decked out like a swanky goth club for the evening with a pretty spiffy open bar. There were some excellent conversations at the party before I headed home again with [ profile] alfrecht, who will be heading back to Anacortes tomorrow morning.

For me, the next few days are going to be trying to catch up on a little sleep and poking at the fic I'm writing. Once that's done, I'll take a breath and start outlining some of the Brigid book.
erynn: Gaelic merman image (ogam sequence)
Today I was down at the VA for the first session of the spirituality group. It was great to see everyone again, and I was happy to be there. I didn't stick around to wait at the travel office because half the time it's not in the system yet by the time I get down there after group, so I'll pick up the travel funds next week when I go in. I did wander over to the hill to wait out the traffic and took a couple of copies of Circle of Stones over to Robert. He was quite pleased to see them.

I hung out at Elliott Bay Cafe for a while and read, then wandered over to a sushi place on 12th that I hadn't been to before, as they were having a quite reasonably priced happy hour. Got myself an unagi roll, a short plate of four different pieces of nigiri, and a cup of genmaicha. It was just enough without being too much; my stomach is still out of sorts from the other night and I'm having trouble with the acid reflux again, ugh. I really wish it would settle down.

When I got home, I did a fair bit of scanning of images for the EBC presentation. I think I have most of the stuff I need. [ profile] alfrecht checked over my dates for me on my listing of manuscript sources for ogam texts and marginalia; he pronounced it good. Tomorrow I can spend some time trying again with photos of things I need, and doing a few more necessary things, then Saturday I can probably finish up expanding my notes so that I have a coherent presentation together. Jeff's coming by Monday, I think, given that I wasn't really up to trying to get home during rush hour and wasn't sure I would be feeling well enough to actually work tonight. Things turned out better than I expected, but I was glad for the time just sitting and reading.

Fic brain has set in and I've started a (hopefully) short story in a new fandom. I don't have time for anything really long, but I do want to write something, and I'm not quite in the right headspace to work on the Brigid book yet. I'm waiting until after the poetry book comes out to get deeply into that. I also have to put together quite a few more blog posts with photos to cover the pilgrimage and my trip.

The other thing I need to do tomorrow is choose some pull quotes from my poems for the publicity for Fireflies at Absolute Zero. Two projects. Two small projects. I think I can manage them before I head over to the AFK to play Cthulhu Fluxx with friends tomorrow night. Also, mailing out stuff to mom tomorrow. Must do that.
erynn: Gaelic merman image (Failure TRex)
I was up all last night sick. I still feel craptacular. I cancelled the meeting I had this evening and sent the folks to Edge of the Circle for a referral. I can't help wondering if this isn't partly stress-related, given how busy I've been since I got back.

The doorbell woke me up about noon with a box of copies of Circle of Stones, so now I can take a couple of copies down to Edge when I'm in Seattle next. I was going to go back to bed but I'm hungry and have been doing little nibbles of things to see if they'll stay. We hates it we does my precioussss.

Leslie over at Hiraeth is going to see if I can get some mockup cover art for the poetry book to take along to the EBC for the info table or to hand out or whatever. I'm working on doing publicity things and am hoping that it will help get information out beyond my usual audience.

Despite that I'm hungry, I'm probably going to try going back to bed here soon. I didn't get nearly enough rest last night. I hate spending three or four hours in agony in the middle of the night. Really really hate it.

Also, I got a call this afternoon from the VA, and apparently the request for orthotics went through because a guy from prosthetics set up an appointment for me for next Friday afternoon. I'm surprised and pleased that it happened at all, even more that it happened quickly.
erynn: Gaelic merman image (Magical Sigils)
Aside from some domestic stuff, most of what got done today was a couple of hours with Jeff working on the PowerPoint presentation for the Esoteric Book Conference. He came by this evening and helped me put together some of the rough material. We'll clean things up and format them better once I have all the various things I need for the other slides scanned and written. I'm guessing we got maybe half of the slides done tonight in rough draft form.

Tomorrow I have the tit squish and then home again. [ profile] gra_is_stor should be coming over tomorrow evening, then we'll go berry picking on Saturday.

My Immanion royalty check came in today, and I sent off money to [ profile] miss_adventure for the Dead Can Dance hoodie she got for me at their Toronto show. I hadn't been planning to send it along until I got paid on the first, but the check covered that and still put some money in my account. Not that many copies of Circle of Stones sold yet, but the ogam book is still doing very well. I suspect I need to plug CoS a little more. I'm sure when I haul copies down to PCon next February, that'll pick up some interest in it.

I think I should actually get paid tomorrow, given that the first is on the weekend. That should make a couple of my plans a little easier to bring about. *ponders*

And I should probably consider bed sometime soon, as I have to be in Seattle tomorrow.
erynn: Gaelic merman image (writy pooped)
When I was in California I had accidentally rested my feet too long on the rim of the firepit and my flippies delaminated, so I had to buy new ones today. It was a trip over to REI for a pair of decent Tevas and some extra wool socks and a couple of other minor items I need for the trip. I got sushi for lunch. Laundry was done and everything unpacked and sorted. I haven't yet sorted and folded the clean laundry but I'll deal with that tomorrow. We went briefly over to the AFK so I could say adieu to the steampunks, and [ profile] gra_is_stor met up with her bandmates, then one of her new roommates came by afterwards for some blueberries & yogurt.

Camera software got installed in the computer. I'm making a list of things that have to be done before I head out on Monday. My plane leaves at about 11:30 in the morning.

Many things got sorted into categories and stuffed into small bags (I have a bag for USB cables and plugs and such, one for the set of ogams I'm taking with me, etc and anon), some of the camping gear that's remaining here got stuck back in the camping gear bin. More needs to go back in there tomorrow, I just didn't have the brain cells today. Money was retrieved for [ profile] gra_is_stor for the pupsitting duties. There were a few frustrations regarding Immanion's doing a giveaway of Circle of Stones, but things are sorted and if you're interested in winning a signed copy of the book, check the contest out over here. I won't be mailing anything out before I return, but apparently the processing for the whole thing won't be done until mid-August anyway, or at least that's the impression I got.

Photos were taken while I was visiting with [ profile] mythworker. Here we are looking all SRS BIZNZ.

Jason & Erynn SRS BIZNZ

My camera had died while I was away and I had to buy a new one, but since I was in Oregon I didn't have to pay the sales tax, so that wasn't too awful. It does pretty much all the same things the old one did at a third of the size and maybe half the weight.

I have invitations to three different July 4th parties tomorrow. I don't know that I'm even going to be able to leave the house. So Much Stuff To Do. *headdesk*

I sleep now.
erynn: Gaelic merman image (writy pooped)
When I was in California I had accidentally rested my feet too long on the rim of the firepit and my flippies delaminated, so I had to buy new ones today. It was a trip over to REI for a pair of decent Tevas and some extra wool socks and a couple of other minor items I need for the trip. I got sushi for lunch. Laundry was done and everything unpacked and sorted. I haven't yet sorted and folded the clean laundry but I'll deal with that tomorrow. We went briefly over to the AFK so I could say adieu to the steampunks, and [ profile] gra_is_stor met up with her bandmates, then one of her new roommates came by afterwards for some blueberries & yogurt.

Camera software got installed in the computer. I'm making a list of things that have to be done before I head out on Monday. My plane leaves at about 11:30 in the morning.

Many things got sorted into categories and stuffed into small bags (I have a bag for USB cables and plugs and such, one for the set of ogams I'm taking with me, etc and anon), some of the camping gear that's remaining here got stuck back in the camping gear bin. More needs to go back in there tomorrow, I just didn't have the brain cells today. Money was retrieved for [ profile] gra_is_stor for the pupsitting duties. There were a few frustrations regarding Immanion's doing a giveaway of Circle of Stones, but things are sorted and if you're interested in winning a signed copy of the book, check the contest out over here. I won't be mailing anything out before I return, but apparently the processing for the whole thing won't be done until mid-August anyway, or at least that's the impression I got.

Photos were taken while I was visiting with [ profile] mythworker. Here we are looking all SRS BIZNZ.

Jason & Erynn SRS BIZNZ

My camera had died while I was away and I had to buy a new one, but since I was in Oregon I didn't have to pay the sales tax, so that wasn't too awful. It does pretty much all the same things the old one did at a third of the size and maybe half the weight.

I have invitations to three different July 4th parties tomorrow. I don't know that I'm even going to be able to leave the house. So Much Stuff To Do. *headdesk*

I sleep now.
erynn: Gaelic merman image (Whitman: not all who wander)
My UK train tickets arrived today via [ profile] fififolle, along with her good wishes. I also got the money from [ profile] seanthedruid for my road trip to California today, so that's taken care of. Given that I spent the day in Redmond with friends for food and catching up on all things Eastside, I didn't get any writing done, or anything else for the pilgrimage today, but I did get a chance to show off the new edition of Circle of Stones and my copy of Mandragora.

One of the folks who was at dinner tonight grew up on the east coast and, in fact, used to go to the UU summer camp in Rowe, just down the road from where I grew up in Massachusetts. Gods, it is such a small world sometimes.
erynn: Gaelic merman image (Illya "Missed it by this much")
I'd intended to spend more time today working on the pilgrimage stuff. I did, indeed, get to do that, but I didn't spend as much time on it as I wanted. I was hanging out with some folks in a livestream chatting a bit while one of them was working on fan art stuff. It was, as usual, a lot of fun.

Since the DoDC+3 was out of kibble, I walked down to the Safeway this afternoon. It was in the 60s here, and felt lovely and warm while the sun was out. Later in the afternoon we got a single rumble of thunder (which is about all the storms tend to do here most of the time) and a soaking but brief rainstorm, then it cleared up again. The sky this evening was peach and fuschia in the lowering western clouds.

I went through the emails on the pilgrimage list and checked out what I had already posted (and some of what others had posted) for resources and suggested/recommended reading, then spent some time adding to that list in a Word file so that I can remember what exactly has been sent and what still needs to be posted. I definitely need to post links to the various stories associated with the different sites we'll be visiting, and links to the archaeological and folkloric material that can be found online. There's still so much to do.

Given that I received several requests, I've requested five more copies of Circle of Stones to take with me next month to Eight Winds so that people can buy them from me. I still don't much care for doing direct sales myself, but it will provide some gas money, given that it's gone about $4.10 a gallon here at even the cheapest places, and California will be even more expensive. The very kind folks who invite me every year do send me some travel funds, but with the price of gas the way it is, a little extra from other sources won't go amiss.

On the Searching for Imbas blog, I also did a post about the release of the second edition of Circle of Stones, talking a bit about the context and a few other things, so it's more than just "hey, it's published again."

Okay, looking at this, I suppose I did get some work done today despite my futzing about with fandom. Damn, I keep forgetting how much one can do, even when they feel like crap.
erynn: Gaelic merman image (kermitflail!)
I got email today from Storm at Immanion/Megalithica that A Circle of Stones was released today and is now available for purchase! You can click on the cover art here and it'll take you over to their website, where it can be ordered!

Circle of Stones cover

Given the release, I'll be removing the information about the PDF of the first edition from my website shortly. The first edition will officially no longer be available except as a used paperback, if you can find one. I won't be getting as much per copy, obviously, but at least there will be the corrections and contextualization in the new edition that I think make me at least vaguely more comfortable having it out there again. I still don't think of it as anything at all like my best work. It's a product of its time and place.

I talked to an intern at the women's clinic at the VA today about meds issues. She's going to give me a scrip for 20 tylenol with codeine for the trip to Europe, and a scrip for 500mg tylenol as well, so that everything I take with me will be official prescription meds. I'll talk to my regular doc when I get back from Europe about actually dealing with useful meds for my fibro; she's on maternity leave until September, apparently. I also got a referral to podiatry for my achy feet to see if there's anything actually wrong, if it's just the fibro, and if I can maybe get some decent orthopedic inserts for my shoes if they might help.

After group today, I headed down to Travelers for chai and spent about two hours flipping through books and making notes on stuff toward the pilgrimage. I feel like I'm getting a better feel for the shape of the daily writing exercises and starting to get some ideas for actual poems and readings for each day. I also need to go over stuff that I've posted to the pilgrimage email list and see what I've sent them and what I need to link to or suggest/recommend for further reading and research for folks before we actually get to Ireland.

Aside from that, I'm just generally feeling creaky and will probably be hitting ye olde sack pretty soon.
erynn: Gaelic merman image (Deduce it)
I hung out in #writechat today, though I only woke up about halfway through it (1:30pm-ish). I had a pretty rough night and what sleep I did get was disturbed and filled with bad dreams. Nothing acutely nightmareish, but enough to leave me feeling exhausted and out of it when I did wake. I did a little talking with folks in #poetparty as well, this evening, but again only got in around halfway through, which was a disappointment; I'd been looking forward to chatting with the other poets who hang out there.

Today I tried a few things that I hadn't before when dealing with Comcast regarding the email issue. It's not just Seanet that's the problem. I tried adding my Gmail account to Mac Mail and that wouldn't send out, either, no matter what I tried. I'll tell them about that when they call back, as it means that this problem isn't isolated to Seanet but is a systemic issue.

I walked down to the store today to pick up kibble for the DoDC+3 and answered some email. I also got rhubarb for the cobbler I'm supposed to make for our Beltaine celebration on Saturday. Tomorrow [ profile] gra_is_stor's bandmates will be having their Beltaine, including a bonfire (provided it's not pouring down rain), and I'll probably be going over there with her. [ profile] ingvisson will be going as well, though we don't know yet what time things are supposed to be happening or the exact logistics of the event.

This afternoon when I was talking to the writers I hang with, I noted that Mandragora is supposed to come out on May 1st -- which I realized is Tuesday. I don't know when my contributor's copy will arrive, but that and Circle of Stones are both due out this month! I'm feeling excited and hopeful about the whole thing.

Tuesday afternoon I'm supposed to go over to UW Bothell and speak at Nicole's class about the geilt and PTSD thing again. I should probably re-read my article tomorrow after I get up to refresh my memory on all this stuff.

I didn't really get anything done toward the pilgrimage today, but I was feeling rather under the weather and didn't get much better as the day went along. Even the walk down to the store didn't help much to invigorate me. I did eat, but not a whole lot. I baked some veggies in the remains of the duck gravy I'd made, then late this evening had the last of the lamb potstickers. I pulled some ground lamb out of the freezer and am hoping to have the wherewithal to make some dolmas tomorrow, as I think I have everything I need. I know I have the grape leaves and I have rice and onions and garlic. It doesn't take that much else, as I recall, though I'll have to look up the recipe again.

I'm going to be crawling off to bed fairly soon and hope that I'm doing better tomorrow.
erynn: Gaelic merman image (Inis Man)
One thing I neglected to mention yesterday is that I've now seen the cover art for Circle of Stones and sent back my approval for the cover image. Only one of the three quotes I received would fit on the back cover, so the other two are going inside, but all three will be used, so thank you to everyone who sent them for me! I'm very grateful for your help.

I didn't get out to the party I wanted to this evening because after I went for a walk around the lake, the hips seized up again. I was hoping they'd feel better by the time I would have needed to leave, but even tylenol and tramadol didn't help much. They are still achy, but not quite at the stabbing me in the joints point, which was about where they were for a while. I am determined to be in good enough shape to deal with the walking I'll need to for Ireland and the rest of the trip. I do have an appointment with my doc to talk about pain medication and managing things while I'm overseas, but it's very frustrating.

When I would have been off having fun with [ profile] gra_is_stor and her guest, I spent the time outlining a dream incubation ritual for the evening after we've done incubation ritual at Carrowkeel. I figured that some people might not get a lot of result during a shorter incubatory ritual (some don't), but that a dream incubation that night that takes us back to Carrowkeel would offer an opportunity to integrate the experience and possibly to come out of it with something. For those who do get more of the experience they hoped for there, the opportunity to do a dream incubation could deepen or expand upon their work there, and allow them time to process it more intensely.

That done, I spent time doing more online research and discovered references to three different church sites associated with Brigit on the Isle of Man, and three accompanying Brigit's wells, though I don't know that all of them still exist. I was looking at an online copy of P.M.C. Kermode's Manx Antiquities from 1930, and it's been a long time since then. I have the general areas that they're in, and can likely find them with maps and such once I'm actually on the island. There might be others, but I find the idea of three of them quite appealing for obvious reasons.

I printed out images of the crosses with canid/dog-head images on them that [ profile] alfrecht would like me to find and photograph, then pasted them into my pilgrimage notebook with a few notes about general location. Again, I should be able to get better information about where to find them once I'm actually on the ground there and have access to the ordinance survey maps and the travel guides.

This has all been a really interesting process for me. I know that [ profile] vyviane has taken care of the vast majority of the research for the Irish sites we'll be going to, but looking for the original Brigit's well in Kildare was a rewarding project, even when I found aspects of it frustrating. That feels like it will all come together when we actually visit the site, and I'm hoping we'll have enough room there to do our opening ritual at the original well, then carry it forward to the newer well, which has more stuff set up around it, with a formal circuit to follow.

Doing the research really is a huge part of what makes the pilgrimage such a profound process. Going into it not having done anything, expecting everyone else to have done the research and the work would make me feel like a tourist, not a pilgrim. Working out what we will do in different places, which topics to discuss, what tales or poems to read -- it's all part of the gestalt that is building up around this for me. On the other hand, I worry that the work I do won't built the proper framework to help provide the intensity of ritual experience that the participants may want. I know that I'm not anyone's gatekeeper for this, but I know that at least some of the folks coming along are doing so in part because I'm the featured presenter, and I want to do my best to give them what they are hoping for from my participation.

I worry that my health will fail at the worst possible time and that I will leave everyone dangling. I tend to be more inclined to let myself rest when I'm at home. When I'm working at a con or a festival, I will do everything possible to teach the sessions I've promised to, even if I don't feel very well and would otherwise be curled up in a corner with a squishy pillow under my neck. The fact that people have paid for my transportation, lodgings, and most of my food for the pilgrimage only makes me more determined to do give everyone my best work. I know that I'm going to end up pushing myself very hard while I'm doing this and I'm prepared to do so, but I'm also operating with the understanding that I'm going to be nearly useless for a few weeks after I get home, and that I may have days after the pilgrimage while I'm still traveling that I might not be able to do more than just lie down and sip some tea while I hope that the pain meds work.

I'm going to be on the road for a month, so it is inevitable that I'm going to have a couple of migraines, a couple of days with cramps bad enough that I'll barely be able to walk, and quite possibly other physical problems as well. Despite any of that, I intend to have the best possible experience I can. Just being there is going to be a huge blessing and I want to be open to all of it as it is happening, to be in the moment and to live it as fully as I am able. This is less "I am going to have a good time dammit" and more "there are moments of beauty in everything and I will do my utmost to be open to them regardless of circumstances."
erynn: Gaelic merman image (Everything Hurts)
That's okay, though, as I actually managed to get a fair bit done. I'd been planning to go to a party with [ profile] gra_is_stor, but she had something come up, and I was feeling very achy and migrainey anyway, so we mutually decided that we'd stay put where we were.

It took several hours for me to feel like something vaguely human, but I worked on the Circle of Stones galley and got it back to my publisher and editor. I will admit that my examination was very superficial. I couldn't have looked for remaining typos if you'd paid me; I just didn't have anything like enough focus. I also received both of the remaining review blurbs for the cover today and sent them along as well. I'm very excited by what everyone had to say, and am deeply grateful to my friends for being willing to write them up at such short notice.

The other thing that I did today was purchase my train ticket from Rennes to the de Gaulle airport in Paris. Sadly, I won't be able to spend any time in the city - the train station is apparently right there at the airport and I'll be dashing off to check in for my flight to Prague. I'm relieved to get that done at last, though. Now the only remaining transportation issues are trains in England, which aren't available as yet.

I also did some consolidating of names of people I'm doing things for over there, including prayers at the wells and whatnot. I've got a request for a trees or plants field guide from a good friend, and am happy to do that for her, given that wandering through bookshops is high on my list of Things To Do while I'm not otherwise occupied.

Tomorrow I'm heading down to Seattle for Metropolis. The showing is at 12:30 and I'll need to set my alarm to be up by 9am. We'll probably watch the movie, grab some lunch, and then I'll head home, as I can't imagine I'm going to feel a whole lot better tomorrow than I did today. I've rested my shoulder enough off and on today that it's no longer agonizing, but it's still pretty painful, and it's (sadly) not the only thing bothering me. I really ought to do laundry when I get home tomorrow, too. I'd been wanting to do some today but wasn't even feeling up to hauling the basket from the bedroom out to the laundry closet. Dealing with wet clothes and then contemplating the whole drying and putting them away schtick was really too much. Making food and washing dishes was about the extent of the physical activity I was up for today.

Since I have to get up early tomorrow, I ought to get a last bit of food and take my pills, then drop myself into the bed. I'm pretty sure going to Seattle tomorrow is likely to be exhausting.
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So I went to the VA early and talked to the supervisor about the whole travel thing. It turns out that the co-pay is probably the one thing in the system where being rated at 100% doesn't actually benefit you. The co-pay is taken out if you get above $X per month, and I'm above that cutoff. Okay, I can handle that. Would have been nice, but so it goes.

Group today was actually pretty good and I had a good time, but the wait down at the travel office was kind of fucked, it was raining when I got out, and I was just too tired to face human beings by the time I was done, so I came back home straightaway. I fixed myself some dinner and something booz0rz-like and tried to relax but, as Patrick promised, I hurt like hell today. I actually tried to go lie down for a while around 9:30 or so and that helped my shoulder, but I couldn't feel sleepy. I played some Plants v Zombies and read for a while and now I'm back up again. Had a wee bit of chocolate pudding as a snack and will probably head back for bed shortly.

I bought tickets for myself and [ profile] gra_is_stor for Metropolis. I don't think she's seen it before, and this is probably the best possible introduction to the movie I can imagine. I'm very excited about taking her to see it. (I just hope she likes it...)

Teo Bishop posted a blog today asking "What is the point of your religion". It's a thoughtful post and has generated some interesting discussion in the comments. I know I want to talk about this at some point, but today wasn't a good day to focus on it. If I have time and brain bandwidth tomorrow, I might do a response post over on Searching for Imbas. I'm just hoping I'll have enough momentum to actually write it, rather than getting bogged down in my physical stuff and losing the thread. I'm keeping the tab open on the browser until I deal with it, though.

It seems that one of my Vancouver friends is going to be down in the area for the better part of May. Among other things, he'll be teaching a class on herbalism, and wants to talk to me about Airmed, whom he's been working with for a while now. He says he'll be splitting his time between Olympia, Bellingham, and Seattle, and I told him that he could stay here for a few days if he'd like, which would give us ample opportunity to talk. He's one of the poets who is also included in the Mandragora anthology, and I'd suggested he submit his work to them, so we might both have a physical copy to squee over when he gets here.

I know I have some comments to reply to from yesterday, but I'm still too achy to focus much on that right now. I'll get to everything tomorrow at some point.

In news on Circle of Stones, I've got one of the review blurbs back, and two outstanding. I've forwarded the first one to my editor and publisher and told them I was waiting on a couple more. They should arrive soon, I think. I haven't yet seen the cover, aside from the graphics base, but I should be seeing a draft of it soon. And tomorrow I need to do the check of the edited galley proof, as I'll have more time than I did today. Last night I barely slept (turned out the lights around 3:30am, woke at 8am, after having not slept much), so I'm feeling extra rocky today and hoping to get at least a little rest tonight.

On that note, back to bed to try to actually rest. I wish there was something I could actually take that would make a dent in this pain. Have taken tylenol, and also took some of the valerian and feverfew I often use for migraines. It's helped slightly, but not anywhere near enough. That was a few hours ago, so I'll try a tramadol before I get in bed and see if that will do anything for it.
erynn: Gaelic merman image (Ganesha)
Today was time spent dealing with the galley proof of Circle of Stones. There were a few formatting issues and a couple of places where the order of things needed to be slightly rearranged, but I sent along notes of all the various places I found problems. I didn't go over it for typos, I just didn't have the brain power. I was a bit headachey today and couldn't focus quite that carefully on minutia.

I asked Taylor about whether there were going to be blurbs in the book and he said that, if I wanted them, would be my department. This is the "this book is awesome so you should buy it - famous author" type blurbs, not the descriptive text on the back cover telling you what's actually in the book. I've asked [ profile] alfrecht to do one for me, given his Celtic credentials. I need a couple more, but I'm not entirely sure who to ask. I've pinged John Michael Greer through his blog, as I've misplaced his email address, and perhaps he'll do one; he was half of the authors of the Pagan Prayer Beads book, after all. If anyone has further suggestions, particularly people who would have some context for this, rather than just being Pagan authors, I'd love to hear them.

Anyway, after that I did a bunch of dishes and then got down to cataloging a bunch of books. I did a stack of about 40 of them and finally got them off the floor next to the desk. I still have about that many that I'm going to have to enter manually before I dive back into the shelves in the library, but at least it was done.

I had hoped to do a little work on the incubation ritual for the pilgrimage today, but wasn't quite up to speed for something like that. I caught up on a little email, though, and did a little decorating of the cover of the pilgrimage notebook that I'll be taking along. I found a b/w Celtic style illustration that I pulled off the intertubes and printed out, with dandelions, an oystercatcher, sheep, a flame, and a blacksmith's bellows and tongs surrounding a Brigid figure. I had to fiddle with it a bit to size it properly, then I glued it to the front and did a little color on it with some colored pencils I've had sitting around in my desk for ages. It's not brilliant, but it's okay. It'll certainly do the job. I'm just hoping the liquid glue I used to paste the picture to the Moleskine notebook will stay. It seems to be okay so far.

[ profile] gra_is_stor had gaming with some friends tonight and is now on her way up for the weekend. She might go to the Shinto shrine with me and [ profile] alfrecht on Sunday, though we're not certain just yet. He'll be arriving around 9am on Sunday morning when his mom drops him off on her way elsewhere. She'll be picking him up again around 5pm, from what he says.

I'll probably head for bed shortly after [ profile] gra_is_stor gets here. I'm not particularly tired, but my head is still kind of off.
erynn: Gaelic merman image (lotus)
Today was a group day down at the VA; I ended up waking an hour earlier than my alarm was set for, despite having gone to bed after 3:30am. It was sunny when I got up but didn't, sadly, stay that way. Group was good, and I talked to someone at the VA who gave me a phone number for an office in Kansas where I can deal with the travel compensation issue I've been having -- they're taking a $6 co-pay out of my check almost every time I go down there and, rated at 100%, the travel office is apparently Not Supposed to Do That. The woman I talked to is another disabled vet (tons of disabled vets work at the VA, unsurprisingly) said that they would probably send me back compensation for what I'd not been paid, as well, which might be at least a couple of years' worth of visits. At six bucks a whack, that could potentially be a few hundred dollars. I don't know if it will happen before I leave for Europe, but if it does, that would be spectacular. That said, it has to start with a phone call, which is not at all my strong suit. I'm not looking forward to it, but I'll probably try to call tomorrow sometime before 4pm their time, which means I will likely still be trying to kick-start the brain.

It turned out that the friend who had offered to do some massage work on me had another commitment today, so it's likely to be next Thursday before I get any work done, but that's certainly way better than not having it on offer at all. I'll be looking forward to getting pummeled.

The mail today brought the gift of a prototype for a larger féige find from [ profile] chronarchy. Here's a photo, with the other one and a quarter for scale comparison. It's quite nice work, and I was surprised and delighted to receive such a ritual tool.

Féige Find 2 - prototype for large size

Travelers was quiet this afternoon and I managed to finish reading Brigid of the Gael, take some notes, and get a little work done toward the incubation ritual for Ireland, so I felt pretty accomplished with the whole thing. It was tempting to consider going over to [ profile] gra_is_stor's place instead, but I really had to get things done today. She'll be up tomorrow night sometime, as she'll be having a game night at her place with some mutual friends, but I'll be spending tomorrow dealing with the Circle of Stones galley.

Bits of me are a little afraid to open the file and see what it looks like. This is the last opportunity to make any corrections or changes, though, before it goes to press, so it's important to actually get my anxiety under control and do it. I went over to Bartell's after I got home this evening to pick up a couple of ink cartridges for the printer, as I was out of black ink; if I think I need to print out the galley, I needed a fresh cartridge. At least that was done. I also picked up a knee brace. I haven't tried it on yet, but I will tomorrow.

In other news, [ profile] unwoman posted a short trailer for her documentary on steampunk music, Beautiful Fish: Unwoman Plays Cello for Steampunks. Aside from the fact that she is, quite simply, fucking amazing, there's also a bit where [ profile] gra_is_stor and I appear, dancing in the audience at her SteamCon show, so watch for us!

I was pretty tickled, even though I don't feel like I'm particularly photogenic. [ profile] gra_is_stor, however, is terribly hot and you should watch just to see her. ;) She's the dancer, I'm the awkward one.

So: tomorrow = working on Circle of Stones and more work on the incubation ritual to flesh out some ideas I had, provided I get through the galley with enough brain cells to work on something else.
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Got word back from my editor that he thought it sounded good. Now I'm just waiting for my publisher's input.

If I'm lucky, I may end up getting some massage tomorrow evening. It would be really helpful for the pain I've been in lately.


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